My very real musings.What the hell am I doing?  

rm_MonaMee22 39F
37 posts
8/24/2005 3:49 pm

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My very real musings.What the hell am I doing?

First of all what the hell am I doing? What is a pretty,educated,smart,talented and funny woman like myself doing here on AdultFriendFinder. For that matter what are all the other women like me doing on AdultFriendFinder? Is it a need to connect with others? Or is it purely sex?

After ten years of a marriage with the wrong person I've developed not only an aversion for the institution (or contract as it were)I need to experiment a little. I'm not trying to find myself, I already know who I am. But what do I like?

Believe it or not underneath it all I'm really a conservative, independant with tradiional marriage views. I've read "Proper Care and Feeding of Husband's" cover to cover. Am I a hypocrite? I don't think so, my views change as I mature. I don't change my views to justify my actions.

None of that matters right now though. For the first time in a long time I can focus on the things that make me happy and can potentially make me a better person and friend.My career and schooling are in the front seat now as well. I'm focused on my goals and I enjoy it. Can I spend time in the glow of fine company,fine movies,fine food and fine entertainment while I do it? A couple of years from now maybe I'll be ready to settle down but not now I'm having to much fun.

I'd just like to get laid while I'm doing it.

My mood today is pensive.I think AdultFriendFinder didn't find that one in the thesauraus.

rm_bassman1941 65M

8/24/2005 5:52 pm

I have been on the nets, off and on, for the last 18 months. The most stupid question I have been asked (several times) is "How can you be lonesome? You are married." I definitely know whaere you are coming from.

rm_reddirty1000 52M
34 posts
10/7/2008 7:53 pm

one bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch

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