rm_MiVidaLoca25 36F
45 posts
1/26/2006 10:54 pm

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12/23/2006 8:51 pm


I feel manic.

I am so fucking wrestless. I even did all of my closing person's work! It's not just that. Fuck, I need a change. I have spent the last few days pretty mellowed out, just going to work and then coming home. I think that maybe I needed a little reflecting time after all of the bullshit I went through last week. Now I am not sure what to do with myself, lol.

I am sad, happy and content all at the same time. It's strange that I am OK with that. Is that normal? I mean honestly, I really don't have a whole lot going for me at the moment...but why do I really not give a shit? And why I am so content with being alone again?

Then again, the other part of me feels very motivated. I want to do something, just not sure what it is yet. Wether I have the means to or not is also questionable. I have my new gym membership coming up soon, so maybe that will cure some jitters.

I feel like being social this evening, and no one that I want to talk to is up. I hate that about working second shift. I have video games to play, a book to read, movies to watch...nothing seems appetizing. Eh, I guess I will go and putz around the house some more.

rm_LeoThermal 42M
14 posts
2/13/2006 9:15 pm

Hope you're doing okay.

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