Searching for Sunlight  

rm_MariGrrl 39F
2485 posts
5/3/2006 9:49 pm

Last Read:
5/5/2006 12:28 pm

Searching for Sunlight

The clouds form, blocking out all light
The wind halts and air thickens
I can't break free from this darkness
It engulfs me, my mind, my spirit, my soul
Breathing in the heavy air
I exhale everything that is right with me
Leaving only the poison of doubt in my lungs
I struggle, I try to hold onto what is pure
Try to keep the real me inside
and expel this gloom
I search in vain for one ray of sunlight
Just one, to warm my dreary heart again
Jealousy, envy, insecurity, I despise it all
Despise the hold it all has on me
Despise... despise the me it creates

Where is my sunlight
Where is the me that I can love
The me that is open to love
Inviting it to fill my every pore
The air that can fill my every breath with hope
I will fight for it,
I can, maybe, find some ray of sunlight
Just one, still able to warm me, cure me
I want to believe again
Is there anyone that can stop this endless doubt
Anyone, that can see through this facade
The cold fearless walls, they aren't mine
My heart is pure, tender, mending still
Teach me to trust, show me a way out of the dark
Bring me into the light, let me know love again


readytolay_3
(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)
105F

5/4/2006 1:05 am

As lame as this is going to sound, without our darkness we don't know our Light and we can love both...And Love is ALWAYS there but in our darkness we some times can't see it or better put FEEL it....Great Post one of your best....Ready

Ready


readytolay_3
(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)
105F

5/4/2006 3:56 pm

Have you noticed that when you post about some really deep shit only your Bitch Buddies will comment..??..I've noticed it, Thats kind a why I don't do that very often...Ready The other reasons is because I'm Really just shallow,uncaring and selfish...Welcome to my darkness

Ready


norprin5 55M

5/4/2006 5:17 pm

i understand this too well, Mariluv... *hugs*

um...does commenting here make me a Bitch Buddy?

King Nor XVIII


readytolay_3
(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)
105F

5/5/2006 7:38 am

    Quoting rm_MariGrrl:
    Yeah, I noticed. I write something from the heart and it's the Mari and Ready show. But, I write a poem to my vibrator and it's like a literary round table. WTF?
LMFAO...That is SO fucking true..!!

norprin5 I knew he'd be the one RARE exception...Ready

Ready


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