Not for the soft hearted...  

rm_MamCsDawne 46F
290 posts
12/2/2005 11:16 pm

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Not for the soft hearted...

I want to look outside..
but the blinds are all down..
I want to smell the fresh air
but the windows are all nailed shut
I want a drink of milk
but there is a padlock on the fridge

A little tiger in a cage
And where is the key
Its in his pocket
I want to be free

I want to eat with the family
but im stuck in my room for the day
I want to go outside
but im to bad to get to play
I want to go with friends
but i have to be here

A tiger in a cage
And where is the key
Its in his pocket
I want to be free

I want to be a little girl
but he stole that from me
I want to be innocent
but that will never be
I want to be a virgin
but forget it.. im fucked

A tiger in a cage
That wanted to be free
I prayed for his death
God gave that to me..

I want to have trust in love
the bastard took that too
I want to see me happy
forget it girl its taken from u
I want to excape my past
but he will never go away

A tiger in a cage
And where is the key
burried in his pocket
I will never be free...

too many things involved in this poem to explain it all.. but if u have ever been there.. then u know and there is no need to explain.. this poem was my life then and is sometimes my life now.. the pain of the past i can never totally leave behind.. my daily motto is "One day at a time"
Many wonder why that im not a loon.. I know the answer... it is because "Im a survivor" and i will never let my past hold me down.. Im too damned strong for that.. and besides.. i never asked for any of that shit to happen.. he was just one sick bastard.. and im glad that he is a dead man..

gardinaire 54M

12/2/2005 11:36 pm

We see the result of a child burned in a fire & left physically scarred, you're scarred within & we have to look into your eyes and heart to see what it has done. I have a mental health disease and suffer through some horrible thoughts and feelings, but I could never understand the horror and pain you have to live with. I hope life brings you happiness and peace.

Best Wishes

MamChelle 48F  
1443 posts
12/2/2005 11:53 pm

I am so glad we have each other. And i hate him as much as you...but have my own way of recoloring what he has made so black...and if that makes me a least It is my descisions now...He has no keys to a lock that is cut free...and laughter is also a cry in the dark....*hugs ans wiggles*

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