Someone smash that internet death clock  

rm_LostLilSoul 46F
373 posts
8/12/2005 6:48 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Someone smash that internet death clock

You know before any of this happened, I visited a site online called The Death Clock ,,after entering all the info in, it came back saying I was going to die April 6, 2006,,,, whoever put that stupid clock up should take it down,,,I want so badly to think positive ,,forget that any of this is happening and just go on but I cant..I am sooo negative and just ready to give up at this point..Im sure that will change..I know this is happening for a reason and I know there is some deep rooted point to it. I think alot of people get scared of what comes after life and sometimes some of them win at delaying fate ,, I am one of the ones who look at death as a whole new adventure and I am finding out that I am more scared to live with the scars this cancer will leave me with then of what the unknown of death will be..I guess you have to be strong either way,,and it just depends on where you think your happiness is,, I wish I could say that from what I have experienced threw out my life makes me feel like fighting this with everything Ive got,,, that just waking in the morning and breathing the air in would make up for the way the loniness would feel every night.. and the way i would feel about my body. Yes it could be worse and I know alot of people have it alot worse then this and if they are happy ,,that is wonderful,,, but how many do you think really are?? I know I probley need a nice hard spanking for being such an ass about things but this isnt the easiest thing to deal with when you dont know all the answers and I am sorry for all the shitty depressing blogs but its helping me cope and you all are helping me get a grip ,,I cant pretend to be cheerful by writting about cheerful things,,,I cant think about something else because this is my life and it might be ending alot sooner then I was expecting... I will be glad when the guessing is over and I know for sure if has spread or not so I know what direction to go... Im off to take a nice hot bath,,,Thanks for all your support!!!

peace out

rm_Psyched4SEX 54F
182 posts
8/13/2005 6:34 pm

Stay strong my friend! A lot of wonderful people are sending prayers and positive thought your to us and share your thoughts no matter what you're feeling! We're ALL here for you! *BIG HUG*

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
8/16/2005 11:29 pm

Dear Lost,
I've had cancer (Hodgkin's Lymphoma) twice so far.
If you ever need to talk let me know.

"If tomorrow morning the sky falls...
have clouds for breakfast.
If night falls...
use stars for streetlights.
If you have butterflies in your stomach...
ask them into your heart.
If the clock stops...
use your own hands to tell time.
If the sun never shines again...
hold fireflies in your hands to keep warm.
If you're afraid of the dark...
remember the night rainbow.
If there is no happy ending...
make one out of cookie dough."
~Cooper Edens~

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A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
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