She lives !!  

rm_LostLilSoul 46F
373 posts
8/28/2006 9:38 pm

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She lives !!

Hello to All, I have missed writing in this little blog of mine but I was waiting for things to turn around for me so I wasent always having to write depressing crap. But I might be riddled with artritis and unable to type by then. So I decided to update the blog for 2 reasons. First is to make sure to let you (all my friends that Ive met on this site)know I really miss you and that I think of you often. Some of you really helped me threw one of the blackest times in my life and for that I thank you. Second, is because alot of people have asked me to update and let them know how things are right now. Well I wish I could say things are better but right now they arent. They we'r for a couple of months but it was only superficial. I started seeing someone and somehow he managed to move in just weeks after meeting me. I told you I was lonely,, I guess I didnt realize how lonely. Anyway, things went down hill with a quickness and all we did was constantly fight. My moms health took a serious turn downhill and has presently been in the hospital for the last 2 months. She developed a blood clot in the plastic stint they put in her leg. Its 4 clots and 5 surgeries later and she is still not out of the water. The last surgery was 3 days ago and it lasted 7 hours. Its the last hope of saving her leg. If this doesent work they plan to amputate from the knee down. But to top it off 3 of her incisions from surgeries just a few weeks ago, have gotten infected and dont want to heal. Infections that could easily turn into staff infection. She is suppose to be at one of the best hospitals in America but the care there is appalling. It is a horrable feeling seeing someone you love in pain and with soo much fear from the possible loss of a limb. She wont want to live if they take her leg. She doesent want to spend the years she has left with that burden. and nothing I can say takes away her pain. Nor does it make her feel better. For the problem paying the bills, I have put an ad on ebay to be someones human business card. I will tattoo their business name around my neck or wrist or where else we decide on for one year as well as pass out flyers or however else I can promote the business. So far no bids but Im not going to lose hope. Still a couple of days left, if you want to see it , its listed under totally bizarre, I kicked the guy I was seeing out today, and I feel ok with that. I cant handle all the fighting on top of my mom and everything else. I know in my heart he wasent right for me so why keep wasteing my time or his. I will know in a few weeks if my mom will pull threw this and I will be sure to let you know. I am with her everyday trying to keep her strong and her thoughts positive, I just hope its enough. I pray all of you are doing well and life is happy. Thanks for thinking of me and stay happy.

peace out

ps,,,the picture is a tattoo Im doing on my brother. Actually Im fixing it, should have seen it before I started, It was really bad

stevenLuv4u 64M
142 posts
8/28/2006 10:10 pm

Lost..sad to hear what you have been going will be in my prayers from now on, with your family. If you like ..hit me up here..I can always use another local friend. Huggz and kisses beautiful. Steve.

VonycS5 47M  
5 posts
8/28/2006 11:23 pm

Hi there.

There is a subject called Appreciative Inquiry. The gist: it lets you think/discuss/pursue the positive things around you to seek a way to change the circumstance in which you are in, rather than thinking of all the negative things that may have happened around you. Keep it in mind when you and the ones you care about are in a tough situation, and how it can be used to get yourself out of it.

Hang in there, stay positive, and best of luck to you and your mom. Sisley900.

cozy1957 59M

8/29/2006 11:34 pm

Hang in there and let me know if I can help. I cheered when I read you threw the guy out because you don't need that crap on top of everything else.

I'll pray for your Mom too...she needs you now as much as ever.

Stay strong.

rm_Psyched4SEX 54F
182 posts
8/31/2006 11:51 am

Hello again my friend! WELCOME BACK! I can't believe it's been a year since your horrific ordeal. As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.....they were answered once before and they will certainly be answered this time as well. Keep the faith my friend and know that I care! {=}

pussylicker6712 45M

8/31/2006 7:15 pm

I am truly sorry just like everyone else about youre mom and what you are going through. I do hope everything gets better for you. That tattoois kick ass you are one hell of an artist. peace out I hope everything starts to get better for you

The mercy hospital in C.R. is not much better my knee is still fucked up becuz of them

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