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Hey where did my friends go?
Hey where did my friends go?
Ok, now this is a new one on me,, I have a couple of friends that I really counted on for support threw this crap and both of them have totally let me down and are treating me like crap..one came over here yelling at me for something I havent even figured out yet and the other one is acting like I never exsisted. Its almost like they are pissed off at me because Im sick or something. I dont get it,, They wont call me or return my calls and this just started after one of them (who was suppose to go with me) decided not to go when I went for testing and found out something is wrong. Could it be guilt thats making her act this way? They are both hurting my feelings and who I was counting on for my main support because I really dont have anyone else I turn to...I appreciate so much that I have friends from here who care enough to write me and read my blogs..It has helped alot,,It helps knowing I have people praying for me,,thank you,,,
So what do you think is up with these friends of mine?? Maybe I had it all wrong and they we'r never real friends at all..but I hate to think that but thats what its looking like,,, how could they be mad at me for getting sick? Cuz thats what it feels like,,and its bullshit
8/18/2005 8:19 am
I believe it is very selfish of your friends to treat you like that. I have gone through experiences with friends in similar situations. They detach from the situation so they don't get hurt. They don't know what to say and how to react, so the best way for them to cope and protect themselves from feeling pain is to avoid the situation all together. It is not that they don't love you, it's that they don't want you to see their fear and pain. If they can't be strong for you, they'll keep their distance. Not the best way to handle the situation, but I do understand it! You're still in my thoughts and prayers....thank-you for keeping us posted!|
8/18/2005 8:44 am
It will be difficult to tell why your friends have let you down. It may be only temporary or they may be gone from your life forever. One of the hardest things for a friend to deal with is having a friend who has a life threatening illness b/c this forces them to confront their own mortality which they may be unable to do. It may also be that a friend has already confronted loss too many times and this tips the scales and so they hide from it to protect their psyche. If they were ever truely your friends then they are hurting too. If they are strong friends they will confront the problems they have and come back to you.
You are in the thoughts of many. I'm not much for praying but I'll make sure to throw out a couple of prayers for your biopsy to come back benign instead of cancer.
Best wishes Lil
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