"Gooood Girl"  

rm_LostLilSoul 46F
373 posts
12/7/2005 4:50 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

"Gooood Girl"

My favorite words to hear as Im at the feet of a Dominate man. Sometimes I miss having a Dom, sometimes I miss serving as a submissive. When everything in my life is completely out of control like it is now is when I miss it the most. Its nice giving up all control when you cant seem to get a grip on anything yourself. and I cant tell you how nice it would be to do that now. I have already made the decision that when I finially have some money in my pocket, I am going out and hopefully getting something that I havent had in a long time. Remember that blog awhile back when I talked about finially getting some? Well that was the last time and looking back it really wasent that good. So Im way over due. I miss just having arms around me..its weird because I want to let someone get close to me, I want to feel arms around me but when it comes down to it, I guess Im just having a hard time trusting enough to actually let anyone near me. Its fucked up,, I dont even know if that will make sense to anyone. Nothing has changed except I went out with a good attitude, put in a few applications,, got into a huge fight with my son because I didnt have any money to give him and no one has called me back yet. My hope is fading, and I feel like Im losing myself more everyday. How nice it would be to have someone take over and make everything better, so I can spend my time trying to be a good girl instead of spending it stressed out. It sucks being confused, stressed and alone. Thats my 2 cents for the day

peace out

cozy1957 59M

12/7/2005 11:48 pm

You do sound damn stressed. And I can see how it could be hard to trust someone at a time that you really want to trust someone.
If it helps I can listen.

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