So F*king Blah right now.....  

rm_Leonnie4_69 31F
42 posts
7/16/2006 9:42 pm

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7/17/2006 8:45 pm

So F*king Blah right now.....


so...lifes a lil on the idk side...I feel like im trapped ina cage that i cant escape from no matter what i try...the keys to the hallways are lost to me...why does this have to be??? fore all my optimisim i feel the negativity of the world...Damn my Empathic powers...for all they bring me is heart ache...
I am lost....and i now know that i am meant to be a wonderer...and while this is fine, it bring with it a sad truth...I am meant to be alone within my travels...my heart has been stolen and given to often in my life so much so that i feel i have nothing else to give...my friends are my life...yet they are few and far between...and while i love them, there is always that fear of losing them...Ive moved every 3 years of my life...and when ever a real friend comes along, one of us either leaves...or circumstances happen that cause our friendship to dissapate...and it is because of that reason, that i am meant to spend my life alone...
i know what i want...i know how i can be found again...to find someone who is as lost as i am...someone whose willing to drop everything and travel with me, so that we may help ourselfs find our true place on this Urth...I want someone who when they look at this Urth...they weep for wat little beauty there is, and weep for what has been done to it...someone who can just look at something and find the beauty in it...who has the barriers around their heart, but still allows themselves to be loved, and who is willing to love with everything they are...no holding back...
I want someone who, when i call them at 3 in the morning and say "get rdy", theyll be ready and waiting in 5 minutes...and doesnt bother to ask what we're doing until sunrise...someone who, no matter how stupid, dumb, or Insignificant the idea, is willing to be up for it no matter wat...whose willing to live out of a back pack or a car, and travel the world with me, and discover all that we can...
I want a friend, a true friend, you all know the kind...theyre the person sitting in jail with you going "dude...that was AWESOME!!!".

blackhitman619 35M
6 posts
7/16/2006 10:28 pm

hey i understand ur situation..n sames the case with me ... i ran away from my country to escape evrythin n search for sumthin new n solid .. i think v twoo sare da same problms and hav same desires...i think v should get to know each other bettr.. wat u say ???


MarcoPolo197676 40M
541 posts
7/16/2006 10:57 pm

A true freind is the one who keeps you out of jail.


love2eatu2knight 35M
3 posts
7/17/2006 7:25 pm

I know how it is to move every few years and leave behind people you care about. I dit that for most of my life and have left behind so much that i wonder dhy I continue to go on.


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