renewal  

rm_LeoThermal 42M
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4/19/2006 11:42 pm

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4/19/2006 11:57 pm

renewal


It's that special time of year again, and I guess it's somewhat special. The earth is starting to come to life again, and so there is a different feel to things. It's a time of change, but so much remains the same, or backslides like New Year resolutions that never make it out of January.

So I'm not making any special gestures at this time to try to capitalize on the symbolism of the season. I remain a work in progress, still applying a newfound ability to see my faults (absent for many years, but that's another story), still finding plenty to see.

And the world keeps spinning. Anyway, enough of that crap.

Work's going pretty well. The other helper is this young kid, and he wanted to trade off helper jobs by the week instead of every other day. So I ended up with the harder helper job last week, but we had Friday off, plus our anal-retentive operator switched shifts one day last week, so I had it pretty easy. He's been getting slammed with shitty orders all this week. Live and learn.

I have been doing spring cleaning, but I stalled. I did 80-90% of it last Sunday, but I haven't done much since. I'm also rearranging my sparse furniture.

I invited a bunch of people from work to hang out Friday night to celebrate my year anniversary with the company. In almost 32 years I've never stayed with one job for a whole year, so I consider it a milestone.

Anyway, that idea was good motivation to clean up this sty. Hehehe.

It's been a weird time lately. My sleep has been all over the place, although it's getting to the point where that's becoming the norm. A lot of solitude lately, with accompanying mixed feelings. I sway between loneliness and the selfish desire to not be bothered by other people's problems. And on the other hand, I saw my best friend twice this past weekend, and so it was good to reconnect with him. I also saw my dad.

I'm kinda at this eqilibrium where the basics are covered (food, shelter, gainful employment, etc.), but in my head, things are...uncertain. I don't want to say topsy-turvy, because I think that's too strong.

I don't know. I think it's time to step away, finish up some things around the apartment, and fall asleep to a DVD.

Peace.

Pet1960 56F
193 posts
5/19/2006 11:50 pm

I do know what you mean. Seems like now and again you have to step back and watch it spin for a while and regain some perspective. Just don't step back and watch too long. If the world gets to spinning too fast you might not be able to step back in again! Anyway great post in your blog...Hope to see you back involved again soon.


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