Emotionless Feelings  

rm_LQQKIN4UNKY 50F
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12/14/2005 2:53 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Emotionless Feelings

Im sitting here thinking, caught up in my own little world. Everythings changing so fast but yet no words.I long to see the look in your eyes, time and time again youve seem to make me cry.Im holding on to the thoughts that I have, cant seem to wonder of what we might of had. Many years in the dark, many moments spent apart but the feelings seem to change making me wonder whats fair game. Ive tried moving on and its been hard, I thought it was time to begin a journey of finding myself again. Im looking and wondering and meeting new people. Scariest thing is that the emotions are not in it, my heart still's empty. I cant replace the touch or feel that i had grown use to over the years, yet I long so deeply and tenderly to be touched again in a way that makes me feel free again. So many nights Ive longed to be held, but emotionless dreams is all i can say. The hearts grown colder, the loving is gone, only one friendship thats helped me move on. What am I looking for ? I really dont know, cant explain if Ive forgotten what love is really suppose to be, or maybe it doesnt matter anymore. I dont wanna compare what Ive had to what may be, but my hearts empty cant you see? All of the love songs bring me pain, turn off the radio and pretend theres no shame. In a flash it was gone, friends and family put you long gone. I wasnt to blame, unless its for what I gave and in all I done for you. I loved you unconditionally for many long years and now all thats left is feelings Im not use to. Where and when, or how and why, I dont know who can replace you. Only time will tell no matter how lonely and empty I truly feel, if someone out there somes into play I dont wanna feel this way. The love I seek and dearly need may pass me bye from the fears from you. The heart beats slowly, the nights grown still. No one here but me in this empty room, music softly playing and candles burning bright. The emotionless feelings are all I have, release me from this torrid hell, let me go and grow as well........


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