What a Disappointment!!!!  

rm_KarmoHunny 54F
256 posts
6/20/2006 11:45 pm

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8/23/2006 9:42 pm

What a Disappointment!!!!

Well, I guess I deserve what happened to me. A person from my past discovered my profile on this site and contacted me. I was very surprised to hear from him but felt good about it. We managed to talk on the phone again because he hadn't changed his phone number. We agreed to meet. I went to his apartment, we chatted for awhile then he took pictures of me. I allowed him to take pictures of me in various stages of undress. We then spent the night together. I enjoyed being with him very much. I thought that we would probably be seeing each other every now and then. But that was not to be. He ceased contact with me. He won't return my instant messages, declined my invitation to be in my network, won't return my email and his phone line manages to be busy whenever I try to call him. That has made me feel terrible and deserving of what he is doing. You see, I have a boyfriend. He would be mortified to find out that I have been on this site and, would be terribly hurt to find out that I was with that person from my past. I feel so guilty for being with someone else. So, I guess this is Karmic retribution. I won't be hooking up with any other men on this site and am considering ending my membership. The reason I came to this site is because of having bi-curious feelings. I had hoped to meet someone to explore that side of me. Now, I'm apprehensive about doing that also. I'm torn as to what to do. I know one thing, I feel hurt about what the person from my past has done. He could have at least given me a reason for doing what he is doing. Is that too much to ask? I think not. So, I am going to try and let the hurt go and get on with my life. Like my mother says: "Live and learn." I've learned a very valuable lesson.

danigirl1000 56F

6/21/2006 12:43 am

Awww hun, what a B*****D !!!!!

He ain't worth bothering with. Just put it down to one of life's bad experiences and try to forget about it.

Good luck !!!

rm_KarmoHunny replies on 6/21/2006 9:53 pm:
Thank you Danigirl. I appreciate your kindness.

crazygurl2xx 56F

6/22/2006 1:30 pm

where the heck do you live? your profile is turned off.

rm_KarmoHunny replies on 6/22/2006 4:13 pm:
I live in Minnesota. I'll be turning my profile back on soon. I just felt I needed a bit of anonymity for a little bit.

xxxtallorderxxx 46M

6/23/2006 1:46 am

just remember not everyone is like your ex, yea you were naughty cheating on your boyfriend, but you did things with your old boyfriend because something was either missing or lacking. That's why you feel that little more hurt now i guess, it's a shame he couldnt answer you, you deserve a better man who's goona talk to you hun...

rm_KarmoHunny replies on 6/23/2006 10:04 am:
The guy finally did answer an email from me. But I don't think things are going to go any further for me and him. Which, is fine with me. You're right, something is lacking with my boyfriend. I don't know what to do about it though. I've been wracking my brain and coming up with the same thing...nothing.

Package1971 45M
1051 posts
6/26/2006 4:59 pm

No, you don't deserve that. It's too bad you had that happen to you, but there are a lot of jerks out there. You at least deserve an explanation.

rm_KarmoHunny replies on 6/26/2006 6:32 pm:
Thanks Package! I've decided to just be faithful to my boyfriend. That's what I should have been doing in the first place. The strange thing is, I like coming to this place. I'm not necessarily looking for someone to meet though. I enjoy reading the blogs, looking at beautiful bodies and occasionally watching people on cams. I'm definitely a voyeur.

Package1971 45M
1051 posts
6/27/2006 3:01 pm

Really? Cause I love being watched on web cam. I'm always looking for voyeurs. That and the blogs are worth the price of the little gold ball to me. Let me know if you'd like to watch.

rm_KarmoHunny replies on 6/28/2006 4:09 pm:
I will definitely let you know!

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