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The Cruelest Month
The Cruelest Month
Alright ~ I'm here again to make my blog record look a little less pathetic. Updating this more than once every two months is apparently too rough for me.
Honestly, though, I haven't had much to say. Ever since my grandpa passed away in mid-March, my introverted personality has let the rest of me know just who wears the relaxed fit jeans in this body ~ I haven't felt exceptionally talkative or wanted to be around people all that much.
This is, of course, untimely, because this is the time of year where my libido skyrockets. I don't know if anyone else experiences these seasonal cravings, for lack of a better term, but I've had this insatiable springtime drive ever since my testicles dropped. I'm constantly horny, my cock gets rock-hard at the drop of a shoe, and I can shoot my load 5 times a day and still be ready for more.
Now this can be a very, very good thing as long as I have a partner or more to play with, or it can be an absolute fucking nightmare ~ and because of my mood, this year has definitely skewed towards the latter. There's only just so many times you can masturbate before you begin to miss the many other sensual aspects of the sexual act other than orgasm ~ the smell of a woman's hair, the taste of her skin, the sensation of having her warm, wet pussy wrapped around your groaning manhood, the sound she makes as her body explodes in orgasm ~ that I just can't replicate with a tissue or sweatsock (thankfully.) After a while, it leaves me tired, depressed, and unmotivated -- which, based upon my survey of many different women over my lifetime, aren't considered attractive qualities by the fairer sex. So this just leads to this crappy downward spiral of sexual frustration.
I know I will come out of this eventually ~ summer's coming soon, and hopefully my libido will lessen a little with it. (That is, without a doubt, the most fucked up statement I've ever made.) Until then, I just need to push myself until my personality stabilizes again and my motivation returns.