Somebody Loves Me  

rm_JocelynRenee 54T
51 posts
12/5/2005 10:31 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Somebody Loves Me

By now, I suspect that some may think me a bit crazy. Little black ghosts? Halos of light? Yeah, well I suppose it does sound a bit nuts - kinda like a man wanting to wear a dress, or someone knowing they were born the wrong sex. Or maybe it's crazy like someone who quit their job and took all of their savings to start a business with no guarantee of success. There's never a shortage of reasons to call me crazy. To be honest, sometimes I question the whole thing myself. I was working pretty long hours during the time I saw these things. Maybe the stress got to me. Maybe I simply imagined all of it. Besides, these events happened more than 10 years ago and it all went away as quickly as it came. No more black spirits. No more halos of light.

Other folks will be disappointed that I'm advocating religion, church attendance, or the Bible. They will point out the atrocities perpetrated in the name of God or recount their personal experiences with the uncharitable nature of church-goers. So, let me make one thing perfectly clear: this long tale has nothing to do with religion or church. It is simply the story of my spiritual discovery. Religion and churches are created and populated by men - flawed men. The fact that humans use God's name to support their own misdeeds is certainly not surprising to me. It doesn't surprise me any more than the story of someone killing in the name of race, or causing mayhem in the name of their favorite football team. These behaviors are not an indictment of God, they are an indictment of man.

Besides, none of this has anything at all to do with what I'm writing about. Arguing about Bible inconsistencies, disagreements on dogma between different religions, or the behavior of a religion's adherents simply misses the point. For me, I believe that we are spiritual beings and that there is a higher power that loves us despite our very human flaws. That belief allows me to see myself in a new light and sustains me in times of trouble. Though everything I have and everyone I know may be taken away from me, there is always one that I know loves me.

For the larger questions - "Which religion is right?" "What does passage 'X" in the bible mean?" - I have no answers. I don't suppose any of us will know the answers in this lifetime. What I do know is that it would be a great start if we all would strive to be a light in this world and do all we can to help others find their way.


rm_carlsj329 69M

12/5/2005 2:17 pm

Hey doll - you just keep writing and don't worry about what others think of you. There are some of us out here who really enjoy reading what you've written. Maybe we should however let you know more often just how much we appreciate. and maybe take heart in what you've written.

love always,

rm_JocelynRenee 54T
11 posts
12/6/2005 8:51 am

Thank you Jackie, your words mean a lot! - Jocelyn

swmlfttbm99699 72M
22 posts
12/6/2005 1:33 pm

I definitely have to echo Jackie's comment! I look forward to reading your blogs. I can relate to a lot of what you write. You also make me think and smile too. Just keep them coming!!!!!!!!

Become a member to create a blog