Should I pull the trigger or would you like to?  

rm_JUSTsex4me 36F
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2/17/2006 10:01 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Should I pull the trigger or would you like to?

So, I'm so damn swamped with papers, and everything else that I need to do for school that I'm sick. No, not sick of it, literally sick. Everytime I think about what I have to do, I get sick to my stomach. Cramps, like someone is stabbing me and twisting the son of a bitch a million times. I can't sleep, I stare at books and a computer screen all night long and stay up all day and spend very little time with my son, which I'm feeling very bad about. This week I had to tell him several times that, no, mommy can't go outside and play because she has to get this done. I hate deadlines and I hate a restrictive schedule that prevents me from giving my son the attention that he needs.

I keep telling myself...only a few more weeks until spring break...but what the hell for?? I'll have to spend that week of trying to catch up on the week that I'm behind.

I haven't had a chance to watch the news or read a newspaper for at least a month.

My sex life, you might ask? What sex life? A quick one in the shower in the morning, which is the only time I have. Then, he's announces that he will be working for 3 straight weeks instead of the usual 2. So,now, I am piled ass high with papers and such, have no time to spend with my son other than a few minutes here and there and a story at bedtime, and no sex. Could life be any better? No, I don't think so.

And, I miss shopping. I love to shop. I used to do it everyday and now my trips to the store are for bread, milk, and laundry detergent. Exciting!!

But, I guess I asked for it. I made my own bed and now I'll have to sleep in it.....Alone!

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