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How do they do it?!
How do they do it?!
I've had some time re-discover myself ever since my ex started to alternate weeks with me watching our boys. In some ways that is good because we each get a break from parenting which can be in itself a full time job. So hurray for all dads out there who decide to go half and half with the kids even though things with their mom did not work out!!
I look forward to them coming back to me after my break week is over but interestingly enough by the time Saturday night comes around I also start looking forward to taking them back to daddy...I know it sounds bad but by Saturday night I'm fit to be tied!
At the beginning of my week with them and all the way until Friday it goes something like: "mommy...mommy...mommy and my response is usually Yes sweetheart or yes pumpkin...
Towards their bed time on Saturday night it goes something like: "mommy...Mommy...Mommy...and by then my response is more like...What!...I felt so bad today because I answered my oldest like that and he started to cry. It made me feel so crappy. All I could do is hug him and briefly explain that it was nothing he had done wrong...it was just mommy being cranky and tired. He stopped crying shortly after that talk...and I continued to enjoy the hug. He is 7 and the amount of hugs he readily gives has diminished somewhat.. So I cherish the ones I can sneak in. lol.
Being a full time parent is pretty demanding, now that my breaks from this demanding job have increased; I find myself wondering how full time parents do it. (No wonder so many of them sacrice sex for rest time) My hat goes off to them.
There was a time at the beginning of my separation that I had the boys all the time...I think my tolerance was higher as well though.
Well this is all for now...I'm tired and would like to find a nice movie on TV and just relax.
This is all strange ... I know that by tomorrow when I drop them off at daddy's place...I would most likely shed a tear or two on the way home. Where should I begin to find the balance?