I love my life...  

rm_Gurlie62480 36F
198 posts
9/8/2005 9:56 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I love my life...

I have no idea what is going on here but I HATE MY LIFE. I really need help. Sometimes there are times where I just don't know why I am really here. Am I here so someone can beat me up emotionally? I hate it when my mom and my brother treat me like shit. I'm sorry if I don't have the "high paying" job like my brother does (hey, he's not doing anything all day because he's not going to school) but I am seriously tired of it. Yeah, my brother still owes my mom $600 from when he paid off a woman from an accident he hadbut everything seems to go out the window whenever he pays for something of heres. I am so sorry I gave our dentist his cell phone number but she didn't want to leave a message with me. It seems like I am always screwing up with my family. I don't know why I am helping her look for a 3 bedroom place - I might as well find a place of my own. It seems like I am just a punching bag for the two of them. I can't cry about things but my mom tells me that I have no right to cry. If only she truly knew and knows what is going on in my head. She doesn't even want to know - she just cares about her own problems. My mind isn't in the greatest of shape. I think I need to start taking medications again. I am just extremely tired of having to help my mom get up from a chair with her walker to help her get to the bathroom - then she ends up peeing! I don't care if my brother sees this. Yeah, I don't know why he paid for my insurance - that damn kid still owes me a stupid digital camera because he lost the only Christmas present I got our first Christmas in this house. I still need to pay for my sticker for my license plate. I need a new license plate too...it still reads MJPBM 5 from the old Natural days.
I just thought I would vent a little.

KolorBl9d 36M

9/11/2005 7:43 am

Lets get 2gether, and have some fun. email me

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