I Have Serious Issues  

rm_Gurlie62480 36F
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5/14/2006 7:16 pm

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5/17/2006 3:16 pm

I Have Serious Issues


I thank God everyday that a lot of my friends have stuck by me through thick and thin. I understand why some of them have left me in the dust - I'm not the greatest person in the world to be around sometimes. I sometimes seriously don't want to be around myself. I know I need some serious help and I just don't know where to go for it. I don't have the extra money hanging around. I don't understand why I am this way. I have almost everything in the world and I blow it sometimes. I guess I just want things to go right for a change. I really don't understand what is truly wrong with me. I love everybody to death because besides my family, my friends are the only people I can count on and trust in. I guess I am just seriously stressing out over everything - all of a sudden, my brother and I are now paying $1,000 in rent ($500 for the actual rent and now $500 for the utilities) and I am so feeling it. After my paydays from both jobs and having to pay for rent as well as insurance this week, I will have no money at all to do anything for myself - not even gas so now I will have to cash in the rest of my savings bonds to cover for it. I'm just stressing out over E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! I've been calling and calling job opening after job opening and it's seriously starting to suck. No matter what I do for myself it never works out. I'm not going to worry about getting a stupid boyfriend and I'm seriously going to start focousing on myself and whatever good comes along just comes along.

And if I start talking about having one, seriously, someone, just give me a good slap on the back of the head.

But not too hard - I need some of my brain cells for school!

~Lyndsay

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