My biggest Fault  

rm_FatNymph3 53F
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7/13/2005 2:26 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

My biggest Fault

Yup, even this goddess has a few, and being the honesty freak that I am, have no problem admitting them. It's the folks who can't admit their imperfections that continue to hurt others with them. I prefer to take responsibility for my faults and not let them cause pain in others.

Silly me, where did I get this crazy idea? Certainly not living in American society, where nothing is anyone's fault and the drug companies create imaginary behavioral diseases so that no one has to face their own inherent worthlessness.

Anyway... yes, I'm very opinionated. Get over it. But this is not my biggest fault, in fact, I think it's one of my greatest gifts. My opinions are not based in fantasy, they are hard-rooted in factual data and experience. But this doesn't mean I have a closed mind, far from it. The more aware you become of the world, the more open your mind has to be. (Shame that most main stream intellectuals have lost this ability, making them utterly worthless.) Infinite possibility in all things. I can be right without you being wrong.

Truth doesn't need to be proven, nor defended. If someone lies about you, does it make that lie true? No, but your defending against it, trying to prove it wrong shows us all that you don't really believe its not true yourself. It shows your insecurity, and frankly, that is not at all attractive. If you don't know yourself, accept yourself, believe in yourself .. why would anyone else? If it's really a lie, then it shouldn't affect what you know to be truth. Who cares what other's think? What a waste of time. Either they like you as you are, or they aren't worth your time.

My biggest fault then, is my intolerance. I am so intolerant of those who refuse to think for themselves, who play games, who spend their entire lives trying to 'fit in' or be accepted, or worrying about what others will think of them, or those who use others for their own selfish ego boosting, who seem to think they know what someone else SHOULD think or feel, or those who are trying to live some lie.

I don't care what failings you have, real or imaginary, it's not my job to judge you. But if you don't even have the courage to be honest about who you are, what you truly desire, and what you can and can not provide, then I have no time for you in my life. Go play with the other sheep, lord knows there's plenty of them.

And no, I don't really need your approval of what I write here .. in fact, those commenter's who feel the need to tell me what I "should" do, or "should" feel/think/say will simply be deleted. Thanks, babe, but not only am I way smarter than you are, I happen to know myself much better and really don't need you to tell me what to think/feel/say/do. I've been figuring it out for 42 years just fine.

I will continue to vent my existential angst here, because I believe that one must express what they feel, let it go and move on.

Expressed. Released. Moved on.


Quote of the Day:

This above all: to thine ownself be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Farewell: my blessing season this in thee!

William Shakespeare - Hamlet - Act I Scene III

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