When I'm Bad, I'm Good:  

rm_Ellenback 58F
903 posts
6/10/2006 8:06 am

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6/30/2006 3:58 am

When I'm Bad, I'm Good:

But when I'm badder, I'm better...

What was that song my father used to sing to me as a child?

There was a little girl who had a little curl
Right in the middle of her forehead,
And when she was good, she was very very good,
But when she was bad she was horrid!


That is the little girl I once was - breaking expensive glass doors when I slammed them in anger, stomping up the stairs, clobbering my brother and causing him to need stitches in his eyebrow, scrapping in the school yard, emptying out full jugs of milk at night from the back of a broken-into straight truck - just to get the 25 cents deposit!

Sometimes I'd get caught for something I truly didn't do, but I didn't understand, then, how you might get away with 10 things, and then be in trouble for something not on the list, but it was just life's way of evening things out.

When I was 13, I was once brought home by the cops, when I was caught up on the railroad tracks - we used to go up there and listen to music and smoke whatever was accessible at the time! Rochelle decided that it would be hilarious to drop rocks on the passing vehicles under the railroad trestle, and of course, one slammed his brakes on and hightailed it up the embankment! We weren't even aware that this was going on, until we saw Rochelle running toward us, "Hollllllly Fuckkkkkkkkk....run!!!!" I could see the fury on the man's face as he chased her, but was unconcerned - after all, I had done nothing, and didn't even know what it was about!

Well, Rochelle was a track & field champ for a reason...she left him in her dust, and disappeared. The man returned to our little group, and we thought he was only going to try to find out who Rochelle was (yah, right, rats die first in that close-cornered world of early teenage years!)but instead, he collared me, and my best friend, Lynn, and marched us smartly down to the sidewalk, where his suddenly abandoned car on the road had attracted the attention of police.

We protested, vehemently, saying that it was our friend who had broken his windshield and almost killed him, that we'd just been standing around far from the trestle, bla bla bla...but the cops, and the guy, decided to make us the fall guys for the whole thing!

We were put in the back seat of the bright yellow cop car, and dropped off at home - the cops visited Lynn's house first, and then mine...and while I was embarrassed more than anything about being in the back of the police car (hey, there were some cool things to look at in there!) I was more worried about my friend Lynn. Her father was a dominating, cold, angry man...and I was frightened for her. We made a whispered pact to "call me when it's over..." in the back seat, and then I didn't see or hear from her for 3 days!

My father just shook his head, and said to me, "probably not the last time you'll be in the back seat of a police car..." and that was that.

I wondered why he didn't ground me, but then I understood: he believed that I had nothing to do with it, and that this was just a scare tactic to 'straighten' us all out by the police. He believed me...!

Lynn, on the other hand, didn't make out so lucky, and Rochelle? Never saw that trouble-maker again!

For a while I was furious about the injustice of it, and it's only as an adult that I understood - there were soooo many things I SHOULD have been in big trouble for, but I didn't get caught, by some mere chance of fortune and luck...!

Have you ever been dinged for something you didn't do?

Have you ever been in trouble with the law?

Did you give your Dad a whole lotta trouble when you were growing up?

Do you ever regret the things you did as a kid, and wish you could go back and right certain things? But, would you?


DRAGONSTATUS: Reminiscing days of old, when Knights were men, Fathers were forgiving, and Princesses were naughty vixens!



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Elle


goodatpoetry2 66M
12400 posts
6/10/2006 9:03 am

#1 I got away with almost everything throughout my life.
#2 Does prison count?
#3 My mother never knew me.
My brother knew me best.
My father saw right through me.
And I always figured,
Fuck the rest!
I ain't never been no angel.
A bad boy to the core.
And now I'm looking for someone to love
Preferably,
A whore.
[From one of my poems. Sorta explains everything, huh?]
#4 Lots of regrets, but mostly about people.


SleekIcilyVarix 41M

6/10/2006 10:13 am

lol...wellllll...back when I was a sophomore in high school, I was at a friend's party, and we got hammered. One of my friends decided it would be a brilliant idea to uproot a nearby stop sign and toss it into a nearby pond, which we did. The next day we got called in to the principal's office and found a cop there. We weren't arrested, but we did have to fish the sign out of the pond, clean it, and put it back. We were lucky to only get a slap on the wrists. What we had done was not only stupid, but dangerous, and we're lucky we didn't cause any accidents. I guess that's why they call it being "young and stupid". Regret it? Yes. Go back and erase it if I could? Yes.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/10/2006 10:01 pm

    Quoting goodatpoetry2:
    #1 I got away with almost everything throughout my life.
    #2 Does prison count?
    #3 My mother never knew me.
    My brother knew me best.
    My father saw right through me.
    And I always figured,
    Fuck the rest!
    I ain't never been no angel.
    A bad boy to the core.
    And now I'm looking for someone to love
    Preferably,
    A whore.
    [From one of my poems. Sorta explains everything, huh?]
    #4 Lots of regrets, but mostly about people.
It does explain everything, but I'm a little perturbed about your phrasing - the 'whore' word, when used in conjunction with the word, 'love'...? You've done that a few times in your blog, I noticed.

Discuss? Thanks for your comments, and your visit!

Elle


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/10/2006 10:02 pm

    Quoting SleekIcilyVarix:
    lol...wellllll...back when I was a sophomore in high school, I was at a friend's party, and we got hammered. One of my friends decided it would be a brilliant idea to uproot a nearby stop sign and toss it into a nearby pond, which we did. The next day we got called in to the principal's office and found a cop there. We weren't arrested, but we did have to fish the sign out of the pond, clean it, and put it back. We were lucky to only get a slap on the wrists. What we had done was not only stupid, but dangerous, and we're lucky we didn't cause any accidents. I guess that's why they call it being "young and stupid". Regret it? Yes. Go back and erase it if I could? Yes.
Love that story Fire...omg when we're young and invulnerable, huh?

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Elle


horny4770 60M
8158 posts
6/12/2006 1:57 pm

If you remember I did without my dad growing up but gave my Uncle a bunch of grief. I got really good at being a dickhead and never got caught. Regrets...too many to count, once I got older and had boys of my own...well, I watched those two little guys very closely. Older then and MUCH wiser! Some anyhow. lol

H.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/12/2006 4:21 pm

I do remember, Horny, I even thought of you while I was writing this!

I also watched my kids, because I'd been informed by European mother-in-law that, "what you do to your parents, your own children give you double that!" and geez, was I scared!

But we all got thru it relatively unscathed...

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Elle


wetta_one
941 posts
6/29/2006 4:08 am

I was a baaaaad wittle girl Police brought me home around age 12/13 in the back of a police car. Hauled me up to the big police building in the city dressed all proper to impress, Mother crying in the park across the road asking me to stop, and to be a good girl. Well it got me attention, just probably not eh kind I should have wanted.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/29/2006 6:32 pm

But, did it make you stop being baaaaad....???

Um...answer? NOOOOOO and thank God it didn't, cuz we kinda like you all baaaaad and bent over like that (wait, why did I just get a visual of a sheep?)

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Elle


wetta_one
941 posts
6/29/2006 8:10 pm

Actually, I was thinking more of Elmer Fudd...I don`t know what`s worserer.....


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/30/2006 3:58 am

Wetta wabbit season....LOL

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Elle


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