The Right to Write:  

rm_Ellenback 58F
903 posts
7/23/2006 9:57 pm

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7/27/2006 7:07 am

The Right to Write:

A blog is a personal journal, a journey of life's paths. It is a means to an end: you can strangle on the grapevine of one's postings and hurt people, but you can also help others with the same exact posting.

If you recognize yourself in my words, it is only shame and fear that causes you to become defensive. I am not attacking you, I am delineating my thought processes in here. This is MY journal, and I will not shield my thoughts or words merely to keep your comfort level to a dull roar.

It is my right to write whatever I am feeling, as this is MY story, not yours. If you wish to have everyone know your story, please feel free to start your own blog, or comment on mine.

This site can be full of phonies, who fly like crows, "Caw, caw, caw..." with news of anything that smacks of gossip, modifying the words and intent as they boomerang the copy throughout cyberland, much like the well-known game of telephone. At the end, much of the content has been lost, corrupted, and the result barely resembles the start.

I do not post names, I do not describe the physical details of a person so that they may be easily recognized, but I do speak truth, the truth as it comes to me, and I am unafraid.

True friends of mine will know this about me, and stand by me.

What difference does it make to you, whom we are friends with, who we sleep with, or who has control of whom?

When you threaten or hurt my friends, you anger me, and I won't stand for that. I may not argue fiercely in your face, as I may think it best to wait for sanity to return, but now I'm telling you - you were out of line, and you need to know that about yourself. It has happened before, and likely may again, and you will continue to spread that poison among all you come in contact with if it goes unchecked. I am someone who plays no games, I do not do drama and manipulations, but I do get angry when faced with those that thrive on them!

By forwarding my story throughout the email chain, you have done more damage to yourself, as those that have met you will hear the echoes of their experience with you in my words.

I apologize to you for one thing: by allowing you to read my thoughts so easily, I have not confronted you in an adult manner, but anonymity is, and has been, a strong shield for me until now. There is a reason you were sent my writing, and why the person who sent it to you performed that action! Examine that, deep within yourself, it's probable there is a learning in all of this for you, as well.

My name is Elle, I am a rebel, there is no black or white to me, I kowtow to no man OR woman, and like mzhunyhole ...I am a warrior.


PLEASE NOTE: THE PICTURE ABOVE IS NOT ME, ALTHOUGH I SURE WISH I LOOKED LIKE THAT, BUT IS ACTUALLY ONE OF MZHUNYHOLE, THE GODDESS OF BLOGDOM! See, how I say, "LIKE (AND THEN HER PICTURE)...I AM A WARRIOR! I AM NOT MISREPRESENTING MYSELF AS SOMEONE ELSE, I REPEAT, THAT IS NOT MY PICTURE..NUMBNUTS!

And, MY GOD, no one reads me!!! Or, at least, they didn't, until now!

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle



ArtDent99 45M

7/24/2006 5:32 am

Ellen; the funniest thing popped into my head... isn't illegal to engage in sex with immature people? Maybe thats why some are like they are.. frustration.

I would announce my moral outrage; but my current lack of morals makes outrage difficult .

In short Ellen, sweetie, honey.... good friend:

Give 'er. We got your back.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/24/2006 5:50 am

You're both right, of course...here I am laying out my visual soul, so to speak, and I've gone and hidden the blog that started it all. Is that a warrior action?

Get off the pot or piss, right? As they say in my bud wetta's turf, SPIT THE DUMMY...

Sheee-it, I don't know...

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


wickedeasy 67F  
26757 posts
7/24/2006 6:47 am

i do believe i live in a time warp - i missed the drama entirely

my comment is simple - if you are true to yourself, that's all that counts

i don't understand the 7th grade stuff that seems to be making such a strong comeback here in blogland but i didn't dig it then and i refuse to give it space now - delete, block, whatever -

your blog stands on its own - strongly

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/24/2006 7:24 am

LMAO DW, I was busy following your mapquest directions, for pete's sake, and got lost over in Guyana or somewhere...where on earth did you get that map from, anyways?

You know, DW, when I replied with the 'Both'...ArtDent's posting was not visible to me...it was just Shaye, and you, so you were an element of the 'Both'...it was he I could not see!~

Fussy man, you are, don't make me STOMP you! LOL

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


ArtDent99 45M

7/25/2006 5:14 am

The rabbit who keeps popping thier head out of the hole to see if the coast is clear will eventually get it chopped off. Run free, live well, be happy. That is the best revenge/statement you can make. If you just hide/watch your words/give a crap about negative people, they will suck everything that makes you special and wonderful right out of you.

I am envious of you. I am in a precarious position, having both to 'hide', but also being a social creature, enjoying interacting with others. I worry that some petty individual will go and fuck up my life if they put thier small mind to it. You have freedom. Hard fought for, well earned. Please don't let these small, small people take it away, even a little. You lived with that for too long (sorry, don't mean to pick at old scars, but they stick around to remind us of how we got them )

BTW: Your limited edition 'FUCKCHOP' t-shirt will be coming soon


rm_shannee2006 52F
3355 posts
7/25/2006 10:19 am

I'm all for the right to write. Luckily my blog is not popular enough to drag me into the comment whore crap or any other drama that I learn goes on around the blogs. Ijust read my friends and do my own writing and keep my nose out of the shit storms. Mostly I don't even know there was one until after the fact, so I must be doing a good job avoiding.

Yup...this juiciness is from me....

S


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/25/2006 3:29 pm

Love you Arty, you know that? I hurt for other people, not for me...when I see friends getting bent out of shape by another's manipulations, I react to that. But me? You could bend me one way or another and I'd still ask for more...that's the result of NOT knowing and speaking my mind, NOT being aggressive, but being too passive. I'm working hard to overcome that, as it makes me a doormat, and ya know what I say about doormats? GET UP OFF THE FUCKING FLOOR!!! That's my learning about all of this. I was in no way wrong in what I said, but I did tend to think that I was immune, i.e. invisible, to those that could hurt me in return. I have now realized that error, and while it will in no way prevent me from trying to speak up, I am also trying to focus on solely POSITIVE pursuits...so when am I gonna see you again? LOL

You and I would be a formidable force together, I'm sure of it!

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/25/2006 3:34 pm

    Quoting rm_shannee2006:
    I'm all for the right to write. Luckily my blog is not popular enough to drag me into the comment whore crap or any other drama that I learn goes on around the blogs. Ijust read my friends and do my own writing and keep my nose out of the shit storms. Mostly I don't even know there was one until after the fact, so I must be doing a good job avoiding.
Shannee, you're a sweety. I think your blog is much better than most of the other drivel found here, and definitely I prefer not having you enmeshed in the shit storms, as I think it makes you a better writer and thinker. This particular drama occurred outside of Blogdom, but I brought it here, unknowingly...and have since hidden the offensive copy, not to shield myself, but someone else, actually. The vulnerable need to be under an umbrella of safety in my world.

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/26/2006 5:05 pm

*sniff MZH likes me, she really really does...I'm blown away! MZH, ya know the reason I put those comments at the bottom? I had someone in the chat room tell me they were going to report me for putting up a fake picture of myself...and it was YOUR pic she was talking about, hence the full 'Blogging fer Dummies' explanation! LOL But, I was actually flattered...like, IF I DID LOOK LIKE Y'ALL...Woohooooo! Damn you look great for 55, but you know that! I think it's the sex that does it, so I'm gonna keep on keepin' on...

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


Gossip_Anyone 41F

7/27/2006 5:06 am

everyone hates me!!!!!

_love, gossip


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
7/27/2006 7:07 am

We Pariahs have to stick together, Gossip....LOL

(((softboobyhugs)))

Elle


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