Heartache  

rm_Drishya 38F
146 posts
7/20/2005 4:30 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Heartache


Here I sit, staring at this blank screen, and for the first time since I have started this blog I feel empty. Totally and completely, empty. Devoid of all emotion. Hell, I can't even cry even though every fiber of my body wants to.

I can't even eloquently express myself, nor can I exactly put my finger on why I feel this way. Strangely, all I can hear in my head is deafening silence and the lyrics to Kelly Clarksons song "Behind these Hazel eyes". I am not into the pop idol thing but, the lyrics are really rather moving. I figured that I'd post them and maybe you'd all find some insight to how I feel right now and I am not even sure why. I mean, I don't think I have a reason to feel like this exactly but, I do anyway.

seems like just yesterday
you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

no I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what I pretend to be
sewed together but so broken up inside

no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

swallow me then spit me out
for hated you I blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
though I dont cry on the outside anymore
anymore

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Sorry for rambling...I'm just at a loss.

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