Trying to Connect the Dots  

rm_DarknStar 54F
3006 posts
2/9/2006 9:55 am

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4/4/2006 1:25 pm

Trying to Connect the Dots

~Wow! Last night is still dancing in my head. My mind runs every which way! and To some point, it hurts to think about and I have to get my mind on other things.
~Nobody will understand the way I feel. I have have noone here to share it with. I really need one of my girlfriends to talk to SOOOO Bad, but ones in MI and the other in OH. Im alone, Im lost, and will be this way for awhile!..I Really want to go hide, maybe in a DARK closet, or just a dark place where I dont have to deal with peeps at the moment, So I guess thats why Im sittin here Bloggin! Bloggin in my little HELL! ~Ok maybe its a vent session to myself, hell I dont know, maybe just to sit here and ramble, and really never say anything!....SEE Im CONFUSED. and Im not making any since!
~Damn, you can tell this is a womans blog (if you follow it), I have my ups and downs in here, I throw my nasty fits and cuss words around. HUH Maybe thats what I need to do GO scream, and scream until I can scream nomore.
~Im so caught up into the space world. and into other peoples lives. Im like a sponge, and I live for, hearing and reading you guys stories!
Remember Im alone and thats why I came here I guess to make friends! HUH Friends...(A sad thought) Friends that I may never touch or even meet, (I feel thats just not fair) Or maybe I just long for a touch from THEM!

ME!! In my Crazy little World I have ROO to think about, and Im tellin ya theres ALOT to Think about!! Which drives Me Crazy!!

Then I have that Damn PICTURE, of a guy!! That I (just know) in My Heart, Ill never get to Meet him! and He drives Me alittle crazy tooo!

Everybody else in my world are just like pennies, put them in a jar and keep them, for there just friends, That I have picked up along the WAY!!

In My deep thoughts..ROO is a fariy tale, the movie that comes to mind when I think about him...grin...Pretty Woman! (swept off the feet, and live happily ever after)(Damn, I got to get a grip, thats just the movies and only seen on TV) NOT HERE in Indiana!!.......I feel that I have sunk so far in this little world I live, that will never happen to ME!

SHIT I have went on and on, and really never said a thing!....

OK!...Whoever reads this, YES! You an sit there and say to yourself,,,FUCKKKK this Bitch is crazy and loosing IT!!....Shes fuckin NUTS!!

Im all the above, and its a shame I can admit it.

You see, when I came here, I was looking for Happiness. and In a small way I brought on more bullshit to put up with!...grin.....I must like it, I keep coming back!!!

So for now Im going,,,Hopefully this evening I can get my mind on something else, to blog. But for right now! I just needed to vent and get some of this shit out of my head!

dontdateyou 43F
42 posts
2/9/2006 11:30 am

You are NOT alone, if I let my fingers go my blog would look almost the same!!!! You'll be great one day!

CopseAuralRunty 45M
700 posts
2/9/2006 2:22 pm

Darknstar, Darknstar, Darknstar....

Take a long hot bath and relax...the moon is getting full, it always seems to mess up my head a little more than normal.

Sounds like you found a nice guy to play with babe...enjoy the fruits of your labor.

Women Women everywhere and not a pussy to eat......

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