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My Cyber Notebook..


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No Guarantees,
I have sudden moods swings!
So I write what comes to
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Dead End
Posted:May 8, 2010 2:28 pm
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2011 9:09 am
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Hello and sorry to let you know I have reached a dead end with this bloggin thing.

For those who followed my blog...an update Im NOT with *C* anymore and its been almost year that I havent seen or heard from him...BELIEVE ME....Im better off....he was a freak! and an ASSHOLE!

To all those that followed me through my years here in blog world. I miss you and YES I think about each and everyone of you from time to time.....

Life changes and so does the way we think.....

Im a retired blogger for now.....Im just livin the life, one day at a time.......

I wish you all a good and wonderful life.......Im outta here...
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Never forgotten......
Posted:Jan 7, 2009 3:19 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2012 11:13 am
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Hello *ALL*

Happy 2009


I miss all you BLOGGERS, I REALLY do....

But there came a time in my life, my way of thinking came to a change.

I devote all my time at work, seems the sanes place to be......

At home I find everyway to see and talk to *C*, Yes he is still in my life and Im very thankful for that. I love him to pieces and I cant even imagen never meeting him.

At this point and time *C* still has 91 days and a wake up and then hes a FREE man.

Life hasnt been rosy around here on the homestead, but who's life hasnt changed in this mean ole world.

Im here just keeping my head above the water and gas in my car or fallins.

......Life goes on......You do what ya gotta DO...

Well I was just checking in....Thought I would drop a line or two and let ya know I was still kickin.

Ill even tell ya....Im really hooked on the *Webkinz* thing.....This damn website my granddaughter got me started on. I have 49 stuffed animals and wanting more.....(brings out the in me)

*C* thinks my retarded, having all these stuffed animals....BUT...Hey I looked at it this way...I dont go to bars or anything like that....I basicly go to work and come home. I never go anywhere but to Walmart and every other week to the prison....So....I hanging in a web site being good.....not looking at men on sex sites! GRIN....

This keeps me out of TROUBLE!

So when I need a fix.....I go buy a damn stuffed animal and play with them online.......geeezzz my crazy life........

well Im off of here.....Ill check back.....

and oh hell noooo I didnt forget ya all. I think about what I have read here in the blogs and I do feel a part of some of your lives. I miss that and miss the thought of meeting some of ya"ll some day.....

Have a good one!!


&& BTW.....Thanks Spunky for being my 3000th comment!
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Entering and Leaving...
Posted:Jul 3, 2008 6:05 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2012 11:11 am
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It's been forever I know...BUT...Life has its up and downs.

June wasnt all that great of a month.

Living life without *C*...BUTyes I still hangin in there for him.

Hard drive went out of the computer I was using. (well it was *C* pc and I thought I would use it while he was locked up)...LOL....

So in the end I had to buy a new computer. Only out 2 weeks and I couldnt stand it any longer. I missed my "Webkinz" ...and OOPS I have 10 webkinz now....(better than hangin in a bar I guess )

Anyway....JULY...came up on us quickly.....

Looking at my world from *C* point of
view. Im one month closer to April 09.

BUT

On this very God givin day July 3, 2008...My Grandmother passed away at 11:30 am.

On July 3, 1917...My grandmother (Evelyn Mae) was born.

My father's mother passes away 15 minutes after family members and staff sing Happy Birthday to her.

My Grandma was 91 and I know in my heart shes at peace and in a better place.

On Monday evening (6-30-08 ) I got to tell her I LOVE YOU and if it was time to go that I understood.

RIP
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weeee morning hours
Posted:May 17, 2008 11:19 pm
Last Updated:Jun 24, 2008 4:16 am
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All is well I guess, Im still breathing....

Life same ole same ole....

But as for May 17th, was a special day in my past....

They handed me, my high school diploma, 28 years ago. With [blog fallinstrgazer] right there with me.

So to make this day special, we went out and bought us a new "Webkinz"

I have 4 of the damn things now. and thats where Im spending all my spare time at. I get home from work and my ass is parked in "Webkinz" world.

My says, Im a weird mom playing in a childs game. But she said it was better than me hangin out in a sex site

I had my granddaughter the last couple of nights. Her parents got to go on a roadtrip to Canada.

My in law had to go after some bamboo plywood, something they dont sell here in the US, (I guess)

Anyway I had a great time with my granddaughter. I do miss having her around all the time.

For a heads up, my seems to be doing well with her problem (pills). She is now talking to my mom and dad and things seems to be at a happy medium right now. Im still waiting for the major blowout with my family. Only time will tell.

As for my baby *C*....May 6th was the first 2 hours visit I had with him, since January 29th. With the winter weather and my work schedule, I couldnt get over there for my 2 hours.

This coming Tuesday Im headed back over to the prison. Its been 2 weeks and I want to see him BAD!! I miss him so much!!

But now with the damn gas prices, I might have to make this roadtrip to the prison once a month. This will suck, but at 4 fucking dollars a gallon. I cant do much but go to work and come back home. Time will tell on this subject too.

Seems my life is pretty much on hold. Im waiting on something magical. The way it looks I have 10 months to wait this out. 10 month and hope and pray nothing happens to *C* or that he gets into trouble and adds more fucking time to this sentence he is serving.

Peeps I dont do anything....But work and sit on my fat ass and wait on my baby to get out of the slammer.

That damn man turned my world upside down and now I sit here and wait on him. Oh well fuck it.....I LOVE him that much!!

So thats it.....I just thought I would touch base with ya'll and let ya all know Im still kickin!!

Good Night



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alittle this...alittle that
Posted:Apr 30, 2008 6:26 pm
Last Updated:Jun 21, 2011 4:07 pm
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Lifes little updates

I cant believe we are at the end of April. I feel this month has flown by and I hope the next 11 months fly by as quickly as this one

I did get to go see *C* on the 19th and Im headed there on May 6th. By myself this time, Fallin got a job and will be working that day.

I got to see my granddaughters "Spring Fling" program at the school on the 17th. She was so cute in her blue dress and singin away.

My on the other hand, is headed for a fall. If not with the pills she popping. But with my mom and DAD. This will not be a pretty site when this happens. Im just sittin back and waiting on the ball to drop. (Im scared....I fear my Father)(God help my with grandpa)

My ....Well I thought once again he was coming home. But things didnt work out the way he wanted them to. and He is still stuck in MI and I havent seen him in two and half years. and He wont come home without the "bitch" so I cant help him and his baggage! Hes 22, hes a big boy

Oh life is so grand...

Last weekend and I cant believe I about forgot about this. But its no matter to me....Anyway on the 26th was my hubbies birthday and we got married on his birthday so he would remember his annerversary. So the 26th was our 13th wedding anny.

DAMNIT

I didnt want to see my 12th and now here I sit looking at 13th....Maybe for the sake of god and alittle prayer I wont be here to see my 14th damn Im a bitch.....oh well he (hubby) made me this way.

I took hubby and fallin to Brown Co last weekend. To get the hell out of here for while and maybe play on the quad I had a longing for a roasted wienie over a fire and I can toasted a marshmallow to die for.

We had awesome weather while down there and took every adventage of it. Back home on Sunday evening (27th) and My baby *C* called, to check to see if I had made it through the weekend. (he loves me)

So I got long winded....Wrapping up April....I could go on BUT its just everyday BULLSHIT in my life that I have to put the fuck up with.

DAMNIT

Have a Good Evening
See ya next month


Trying another pic, this thing will make me or BREAK ME!
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burnin without you.....
Posted:Apr 20, 2008 6:42 am
Last Updated:May 5, 2008 7:24 pm
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Hippie Holiday
420
Toke Toke
PASS!



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look for a glow
Posted:Apr 16, 2008 6:58 pm
Last Updated:Apr 17, 2008 12:39 pm
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"OMG"..."OMG"
Im Sooo freakin excited...
TONIGHT

My baby *C* is out of lockdown....

26 long freakin days...I have waited on a phone call from him to tell me, that he was out of lockdown. and Tonight I got that call.

So.....a roadtrip is coming up on Saturday. I am headed straight to the prison to see my baby! (happy dancin)

Hell If they would let me in tonight I would "GO".....I even thought about calling into work tomorrow. Just so I can see him....But I think my boss would kill me. So Ill be a good girl
(like I always am ) and wait for the weekend!!

I missed him sooooo much!! I cant wait to get one of those wet kisses from him.

If theres one person out there that completes me, at the moment.....its HIM.....

*C* makes the DarknStar SHINE!

Good Night Peeps

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pissy
Posted:Apr 9, 2008 5:12 am
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2008 7:01 pm
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What really pisses me OFF....I have tried to put the new quad pic up on my blog and my profile and it will NOT go....stupid motherfuckers, every fucking time I get a new photo and it will not go......Ill fuck with it later....
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new toy......
Posted:Apr 9, 2008 5:08 am
Last Updated:Apr 11, 2008 5:22 am
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Good Morning...

Well last weekend was awesome in the weather and me and my household decided to head south for the night.

Bill had called on Friday night and told us he had just got a new quad. Hell the damn thing wasnt off the truck yet when Bill called....He is sooo Proud!!

So on Sunday morning, me and fallin got to try out the new quad. And for one of the smallest bumps I had to cross I bucked off fallin. Right off the back of the quad. Shes is OK and I didnt mean too. Its just this new quad has more power than the last one.

and I figure its something new to make me or break me


As for *C*, he is still in lock down. I cant go see him, just the phone calls on the weekends is all I get. He has been in lock down for 19 days now. and This sucks....Im ready to go see him. I love his Kisses!

This pic today is the new quad...(Big Bear)

Have a good day peeps!!


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touch and go.....
Posted:Mar 30, 2008 5:39 pm
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2008 4:38 pm
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It seems the evening is alittle brighter tonight. I guess I could say I had me a great weekend...

Saturday morning around 11am, *C* called, I about died. I was so excited to hear his voice and the thought that I had just got off the phone with his mom, not 20 minutes before his call came in.

But...I learn that he was still in the tiny cell (better than saying in the hole) Anywho..He only can make calls on the weekends while in the tiny cell. (2 calls a day) WOW what a long week before the next phone call.....now if he gets out of the tiny cell and back to the dorm, he is to call me and let me know he has been moved.

and So this rainy Sunday afternoon around 1 he called me again, not once, but twice!

So here I sit...wondering about him again.

Be safe my inmate....I Love You!


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all in the battin of the eyes....
Posted:Mar 28, 2008 9:04 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2008 5:34 am
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March 28.....its been one year since *C* came into my life. It all started with a *wink* from this website.

The moment I seen his picture, I knew he was going to be a heartbreaker. and Told him the very same thing.

As of this very moment, its been a week since I have heard from him. I know where he is, but I dont know how he is doing. This is driving me nuts.

Like everynight this last week I was wishing he woulds call at 8pm. But every fucking night that damn phone would ring around 8 and I would freak out and then it would be some other peep in my life and that I didnt want to talk.

This sucks...but what can ya do but sit and fucking wait and HOPE for a phone call!!

Weekends are sucking...Spring is in the air....I kill off weekends in front of my computer, playing in a childs website.

Webkinz...I have now adopted a new pet, I have a cocker spaniel named *Tripper* She all pretty in her pink!

So now *Wink* has a buddy in webkinz world. and DarknStar stays a good girl and doesnt wonder off.

WOW...I live a great life!

Have a Safe Weekend!


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ponder with me..
Posted:Mar 27, 2008 7:47 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2008 5:35 am
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Consider these 3 thoughts...they are GOOD!!!

(1) Zero Gravity..

...When NASA started sending up astronauts, they quickly discovered that ball-point pens would not work in zero gravity. To combat this problem, NASA scientists spent a decade and $12 billion developing a pen that writes in zero gravity, upside-down, on almost any surface including glass and at temperatures ranging from below freezing to over 300 C.
The Russians used a pencil. Your taxes are due again--enjoy paying them.

(2) Our Constitution..

..."They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq. Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it's worked for over 200 years and hell, we're not using it anymore."

(3) Ten Commandments..

...The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments in a Courthouse is that you cannot post "Thou Shalt Not Steal," "Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery" and "Thou Shall Not Lie" in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians! It creates a hostile work environment.

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is this shit over yet
Posted:Mar 26, 2008 5:06 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2008 5:36 am
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What can I say....Life goes on.....Just livin for the moment...mostly.....

Bad news hit me last Friday morning. Before I had left for work, *C* called. and He had been beat up in prison and was in the hole.

He had a cut above his eye brows, his nose was fucked up, 2 cuts on his bottom lip. A bump on the back of his head and the 2 baby toes of the left foot broke......a nurse thought he had been beat with a paddle lock.

I havent heard from him since.

I have his mom calling me and checking to see if I have heard anything. and If she hears anything before me, she is going to call me.

Pins and needles I sit here and wait, while balancing my work load. Hell work sometimes keeps me SANE. But then again..Im a little bitch at work sometimes. But good thing, the girls at work know what Im going through.

Hubby on the other hand is DRIVING ME NUTS....I cant stand this of a bitch at the moment.....I dont know if I will be able to keep this shit going for another year with this moron......

You see, Im SICK of being the master mind of all the shit around here....First it was the water heater last fall. Now its the damn washing machine...I dont know a damn thing about it...and the way Im taking it, the dumb motherfucker I live with DOESNT EITHER....(But he does know about other peoples stuff....Just not here at home, he plays...that hes had a dumbass attack!!)

Oh yeah and the other little fault he has picked up around home.....He wants to take a fucking shower on Sunday (only)......He has went 10 days, before I made him go....I call him LAZY motherfucker........(it does make it easier, NOT to fuck him....I aint no dirty cock sucker )

and My roomate....She has her own life and that crazy ass she was dating from up north. He hit my VOID list on Easter Sunday.....Motherfucker threated ME.....No more is he allowed around me or my place.....He was been WARNED......But I think Fallin has said Good Bye to that one!!.....Yippee Skippy!!.....

Life goes on and Its just "peachy" around here..........

Just Livin!!

C-YA

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