What Is Friendship  

rm_CCLordDamien 40M/38F
32 posts
7/21/2005 4:52 pm

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What Is Friendship

Its been a while since i posted. Not much to write about. We missed the Xmatch parties here in corpus, didn't get to meet many people (hey. one's not many).

on to the introspection. I know i get close to people, maybe too close. When you have a family like mine, you basicly get 2 results. either you push everyone away, or you try to make up for the lack.

Ok, to explain "family like mine", with only a few exceptions, my famaily pretty much dosn't care about me. MY dads family only ever gets in contact with me when they need something from me, and my mom's family, well, for the most part they live too far away to be considered close and caring.

So to make up for the gaping hole in my emotional life, I make friends. ANd i love them all, because they care about me. what happens to me matters to them. They think about me even when they don't need something, they give without expecting repayment (within reason, of course. ) and love without condition.

I havn't told my own family about my lifestyle, religious choices, or sexuality. I've seen what's happened to the two "black sheep" in the family. But my friends know, and to them, it dosn't make me strange. maybe different, but not strange. It's just what makes me me.

And you know what they get in return? Loyalty. I'd literally lay my life down for those who care for me, if it was needed. I'd give them anything in my power they needed, and most things they wanted. I'm not trying to buy their love, i'm trying to repay what they've given me...

The most precious gift of all. A reason to live, to grow, and to love. Some of you may ask "what about your fiance? don't you love her?" of course, and she's counted among my friends, first and foremost.

so, to all of you who matter most, Justin, Nina, Debbie, Cat, Phil, Wes and Jen, My thanks, well wishes, and my love.

Lord Damien

PS, i just reread this, and realized how much it sounded like a good bye. it's not, it's just a tribute to my friends.

luther672 49M

7/23/2005 6:18 am

I finally got a chance to check out your blog. I'll be check ing it out more often. Nice to get to know the inner workings of the mind ain't it?

MEATMAN5999 57M/37F
4 posts
7/27/2005 7:31 am

Hi, We hope thast you will not forget the ones that you have yet to meet and know that you should not stop looking. What i am talking about is a friend. Those that you have mentioned to be your friends may not be. What i am saying is that a person in a life time only has a few freinds and about the number on your hand. Be careful as to who you call friends. I am not saying by any means that those mentioned are not your friends, Just know what it is they want and how they achieve it from you.

rm_CCLordDamien 40M/38F
77 posts
7/27/2005 8:41 am

lol. considering the hell i've put some of them through, if they're still around and putting up with me, they're friends, because i have nothing but friendship to give. and most of them have been around for years, with the exception of one couple, and they're gone through quite a bit as well (90 miles at 3 in the morning to burry my fiances hamster? comeone, no one but a friend would do that) I have been screwed enough to know to play it close to my chest, but, if you never reach out, you'll never pull anything back, will you?

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