Realising  

rm_BlueEyesNKY 50F
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1/2/2006 7:46 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Realising


The year began, in October of 2004 my Father was diagnosed with Leukemia, the prognosis was he didn't have long to live. I went to see him in February, 2005 with Jen, the love of my life. Took her to my old stomping grounds. Durring my stay, I had great talks with my Dad. He finally understood why I was lesbian, why I loved women. It was one of those, weight lifted off my shoulders kind of talk. I'm so greatful I told him the things that were bothering me. It was time to leave, and I didn't want to leave!
The love of my life lets me play, she is my one and only love. In May I met a woman (she will remain nameless). We met, made love the first time we met. We were writing back & forth on the computer for a month, driving each other crazy wanting each other. I told her our first encounter was to be all about her! And it was. I gave her a stimulating, sentual back rub. I rubbed my upper naked half on her, told her to turn over and we began kissing wich lead to me making love to her. She went home, wrote a short e-mail telling me she didn't have enough of me and jumped her husband the first thing she got home. It made him very happy she met me!
May came along, we were seeing each other as much as we could. The first time she spent the night at my house, we made love for about 5 hours, fell asleep and sometime before I had to wake up for work, we managed to slip in another 2 hour session.
The end of May I got word Dad wasn't getting any better. June came around, I sent Dad a Fathers day card. It was our weekend to see each other again, so we got a hotel room, had dinner, went back to the room and made love for hours. It seemed as if we could not get enough of each other. The love making was so very nice and forfilling. More touching each other's breasts, going down on each other, caressing, searching each other for more. In the morning, she took me home, came in for a bit before leaving. My cell phone rang, it was from Mom. I sat down as I always did when Mom called. Mom gave me the news, Dad was gone. I never will forget the cry that came from inside me. It was more than I could bare, and yet, this loud cry came from me. My lover, my wife, Jen was not around, so I went to my other lover for comfort and did not find it there, she wasn't one to cry, it just wasn't her thing.
I flew home for Dad's funeral. Mom was there for all of us, the rock when she needed to be, then it was time for me to be the rock for her. Once agian I was on the plane home, knowing I would never see Dad again till it was my time to see him in Heaven.
I thought this woman who came into my life was the best thing that could have happened to me other than when Jen came into my life. I began making this woman more and more part of my life. Making love to each other, sharing so much of me with her. This could not be further from the truth. I heard no more from her after a few more get togethers with her. No e-mail, no phone calls, No nothing.
I realized after all of this, that I have such a loving and caring woman who loves me with all her heart right at home. A wonderful, beautiful woman in my life that I did not want to lose. I came to the conclusion, if I ever see another woman, not to get so close to her or share my heart with any one else but for my one and only true Love, Jen.
Now that this is a New year, I know it will be a great one with Jen by my side Loving me with all her heart and I Loving her with all my heart. Love you baby!

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