This is how i feel today!  

rm_Blinded1969 39M
534 posts
5/29/2006 4:55 am

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7/22/2006 4:33 am

This is how i feel today!

Small, simple, safe price. Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals. And I am not afraid to die; I am not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,I want the pain of payment. What's left, but a section of pigmy sized cuts. Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks. Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks? And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the gutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart. Love is not like anything.Especially a fucking knife!Look at me.You can tell,By the way I move and do my hair. Do you think that it's me,
Or it's not me? I don't even care. I'm alive, I don't smell.I'm the cleanest I have ever been.I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.Just Take a look at me now, am i a fake? Do I drink? Do I date? I've got perfect placements.All my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes. I'm the biggest fan I've got right now. I made sure I looked how I wanted to look. The people around me, The people surround me. I feel big, I feel tall, I feel fucked. My stomach hurts, All tied off in lace.
I pray, i beg, for anything to hit me in the face. And this sickness is me. And I pray to fall from grace. The last thing I see is feeling.
Im a Genuine fake...Take me Away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Life's greatest questions have always been: Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? Where am I going? You are about to see and hear one of the most significant messages given to us from God. Get down blow ME! I'm lying to myself
And this dagger's my excuse, I'm a pawn i should have paid up, and I left an hour late, i was laid up,I must abuse myself, I'm against all that I've made up. Set in stone the sun will come
And I hate light, do You know I hate light? To me it looks so pretty burning! take it away, u take my hand, u take my life! I must have caught something, In the heat of all these dances im a worm with no more chances, And I've lost all doubt in a chemical romance, I can't stop itching
over thoughts of tarnished hope, kinda funny lonely feeling! I'm not in love! You know i've never bn in love!Don't make it look so pretty!Brothers and sisters, I'm right here with you
Cause everyone's got one, A story to kill me
I'm so apathetic in my resentment, Living, loving, knowing not!! Take my mind!
Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be. I wanted to be that breath of fresh air, When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deceit has ways of sticking around. And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far! Note to myself, I miss me terribly. This is what i call a tragedy.
Come back to me. I can feel my mind, wandering again. Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home? Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from the routine. Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.

Just promise me one thing, kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep ...................

happyladychat 47F
3740 posts
5/29/2006 6:04 am

Blinded... this is heavy stuff.... you're not contemplating suicide, are you? All stars at one point think about such.....

Oopss... sorry Pal. If you can, go for a break.... even a short break can do wonders.

Take care.

Make it your challenge.... turn me ON!!

rm_Blinded1969 39M
916 posts
5/29/2006 6:47 am

thanks for dropping by girls.... but nah i dont need a break, like i said i beg i pray for anything to hit me in the face, to wake up! lol
other than that im fine babes .... so...
anyone wanna get laid? LOL

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