Innocence Stolen........Part 2 (conclusion)  

rm_BigDnLady 43M/40F
1214 posts
6/11/2005 10:18 pm

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5/14/2006 9:36 am

Innocence Stolen........Part 2 (conclusion)

What in the hell is going on? She then hears a voice. One so familiar but at the moment the tone of it made her skin crawl. “Shut the fuck up.” it says. Oh my God!!! Is this Jamie, the one who professed his love for her, yet was cheating on her and now was holding her down, threatening her? Wait? There is another voice, that sounds familiar too, Holy Shit it’s two of them!! It’s his brother!!! What the fuck are they doing, she kept trying to say, yet had a hand over her mouth!!! Bite him!!! she thought to herself. She bites down on the hand covering her mouth, he releases her mouth long enough for her to scream. It was cut short however by a punch to her face, and was replaced by fear and pain, and more tears. Jamie, places his face next to hers long enough to say: “Who are you to walk away from me?? After I waited and waited for a piece of ass from you! Hell no it ain’t that easy.” She began to beg him to stop. Begging for his brother to stop. “If you just let me go, I won’t tell anyone about this.” His response was another punch to her face, and a sock in her mouth!!!

She feels them tearing at her blouse, hearing the brother telling Jamie to take it!!! Muffled pleas, were all she could manage as they yanked her shorts down, moving her underwear to the side as they shoved fingers inside of her. Her head was spinning with pain from the punches along with the break of her heart!! Jamie continued to hold her arms down as he pulled out his dick as his brother assisted with her resistant legs. After a bit of a struggle he gains entrance, and rams into her. She screeches at the pain. “See if you had just gave it to me, I would have been gentle.”He said as he spit in her face, continuing to ram inside her. After what seemed like hours he grunted and released cum inside her as she tried to at least prevent that from happening, yet failed at that as well. She wept even more now. At least it is over now, she thought to herself. Wait, what are they doing? They maneuver and switch places!!!! NOOOOO! NOOOOO! NOOOOO!!! She moaned. Ignoring her pleas once again Jamie’s brother, rams into her. She began to pray that she would die from the pain and agony she was feeling. God are you listening to me? Let me die!! Just let me die!!! she prayed. She said this over and over hoping that God would answer her if she repeated her prayer for escape. They always say, when no one else listen God hears and answers!! Why wasn’t he answering? She was so deep in her prayer she hadn’t noticed that the brother was finished, and asking if Jamie wanted another turn. She didn’t care anymore!! At that moment she felt as if no one cared not even God, so why should she? But Jamie declined a second turn saying “Naaah, I don’t want her, she ain’t nothing. Fuck her!” Punching her in the stomach saying that she wasn’t worthy of carrying his seed.

His brother laughed and rubbed his dick on her face smearing his cum on her cheek. She lay there still praying for an end to her life, as they walked away after mumbling some threat of telling anyone. She could not move, she had not the energy nor the will!! She lay there bloody, bruised, and heartbroken, knowing that she was forever changed. She closed her eyes still praying to die.

She must have fallen asleep because she opened her eyes to see her cousin kneeling beside her crying, asking “Who did this to you?” She wasn’t alone, she had one of our male friends who was about 8 years older than Shan with her. He could barely look at Shan. “I am disgusting, leave me alone, and let me die.” Shan wept. Drew removed his shirt to cover her bare breast, as there was no hope for her bra. He shimmied her pants up around her waist. She heard something about calling the police, and began to scream NO!!!! NO!!!! She did not want to tell anyone of what happened, she wanted to forget!! She then prayed to God that if he wouldn’t let her die to then let her forget!! Drew moved to carry Shan, and she allowed herself to go limp knowing that she was safe. They took her to his car, placing her in the backseat, with Tamara, who cried with her, begging to know of who did this awful thing to her. They arrived at Drew’s house where he again carried her in and up the stairs to his bedroom, telling Tamara to help me get cleaned up while he went to find some clothes for Shan. Tamara ran a warm bath for Shan and assisted her in the tub and with bathing her battered body. After scrubbing adding more hot water, a few times, her fingers and toes wrinkled she finally gets out of the tub!!! As she heads out of the bathroom, she glances the mirror and she is frozen at the appearance of the girl looking back at her!! Her face was swollen, and bruised. She looked awful. She again began to cry, as they move to the bedroom. Shan collapses on the bed, weeping as her cousin, her angel strokes her hair. Tamara whispers “Tell me Shan.” She cannot hold it in any longer and whispers back looking into her eyes “Jamie and his brother.” Tamara continues to stroke her hair telling her that everything is gonna be ok!!

Drew walks back in with a bag of newly bought clothes promising to burn the old ones. Tamara tells Shan to lie still and that she would be right back, taking Drew by the hand exiting the room. Shan sat up looking at the bag of clothes, seeing that there was even new underwear and bra amongst the outfit. She struggled to stand between her legs aching looking into the dresser mirror staring at a face she did not recognize, and wondered if she ever would.

She did make it through that hell of a summer. It also helped that Drew, got a couple of his friends together and ripped Jamie and his brother a new asshole!! They beat and scared the two jackasses so badly they left town to live with their father. She never saw Jamie again, except for the nightmares that disturbed her nights for a while, but they even went away with time. She was different, after that summer, but in so many ways. Some of them good, surprisingly. She thrived through school, and found her outlet through writing and singing, Her life is far from perfect and she wasn’t able to avoid other pains in her life, but each one helped mold her into a strong, determined beautiful, confident, sensual, healing, devoted , loyal, smarter, woman!! This once broken girl grew into a true Lady!!!!

I have been working on this for a while, and feels so much better now that I have totally gotten it out. I wouldn’t have dreamt of publishing this anywhere, but you guys are so understanding I knew that there is no other place I would rather place it than right where it belongs. I love you guys!!!!




6/11/2005 11:25 pm

Oh my god I am so proud of you, I have never been able to fully write or talk about what I went through almost 7 years ago. Maybe some day , but not right now. And yes a true Lady indeed

Huggs Blonde

rm_BigDnLady 43M/40F
1140 posts
6/12/2005 12:47 am

Thank you so much Blonde! I found myself unable to go to sleep until I had seen that it had been approved and visible!! I really appreciate the support and understanding! I needed to get it completely out, and feel more free than ever!!


rm_xx23x3 44M
51 posts
6/12/2005 2:49 am

I started writing this comment from a point of anger.How could somebody do this to someone and I what wanted to do to the guys.But I realize this is not about me or my anger toward men that do this to women.It's about a young lady that is putting herself out here to the whole world saying no matter what has happened to me I'm going to make it through.Nothing is going to keep her down.I've known you for a while Lady,I haven't been more proud of anything you have done.I hope other people read understand the courage it takes to keep going and not give up.You are truly a strong Lady.


Puurple_Passions 46M/39F
140 posts
6/12/2005 11:42 pm

WOW!!! What an amazing story! And your writing is incredible! I felt as if I was right there with you. Thank you for sharing this! I'm even more impressed with your wisdom and your strength than I was before.

cumonmyface644 50M
3 posts
6/13/2005 6:24 am

im sooo sooo sorry but you just wait karma will get them 50 fold. pma all the way. positive mental attitude. dude above that was awesome! have a great day you will see!!!

keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
6/14/2005 12:10 pm

I am stunned from reading this story of innocence meeting with violence. I don't think I could say how I feel right now any better than xx23x3 has written in the comment above. His comment is right on target with how keithcancook feels and I hope I can find the strength that you have found in dealing with your issues when I turn to face my own...

Thankyou for posting. I think I need to go and be alone for awhile now...

yuasking1 56

6/15/2005 3:50 am

You ar verry brave GOD BLESS YOU

lilteatee1 38M/42F

6/15/2005 7:14 pm

you are one of the bravest person ever god be with you always

papyrina 51F
21133 posts
6/19/2005 2:27 pm

i'm numb from reading this,you are a true brave woman ,and its true the saying what goes aroung comes around,they will get there come uppance in this life and in hell,your a braver woman than me,i went completely the opposite of you for years after my ,but luckily i got back on the road to life and i think i'm an ok person,
Hugs for writing this

I'm a

i'm here to stay

CrazyCoolBiFem 39F
53 posts
6/26/2005 1:14 am

Lady~ I too know what you are talking about from a first hand experience and am glad to have heal from it. It is brave of you to post this and of course healing~ (((hugs))) Sending you good vibes and love~~~~~~~>~~~~@


rm_tugofwar34 48M

7/16/2005 7:20 am

a terrible story of such evil in this world.those who did this will live with this for the rest of their lives and never will be at peace with god.a strong person with a will to live life for's it never over to live life to the fullest!!!!!


4/9/2006 5:08 pm

Lady, I am crying right now. Crying for the little girl that died that day, for all the little girls that are dying this day, I remember praying very similar words. God if all you made we for was this...please let me die. Strange how at the time I felt He wasn't there. Oh but look how He has answered and He still isn't through! Big sugars and hugs to sister of the unbreakable spirit! {=}

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

rm_BigDnLady 43M/40F
1140 posts
4/10/2006 4:53 pm

Thank you MOfunNOWWOW!!! You have an amazing spirit as well! Kisses to you!!


Babel__Fish 45F

5/14/2006 7:31 am


Thank you for sharing this story with us and for linking it into MO's post for others to read.... a loss of innocence is never an easy thing to read/write and above all live through.

I am glad that you have grown into a true Lady who's voice is strong enough to write this.

*Gentle HUGS*

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