Which do you choose?  

rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
998 posts
2/25/2006 7:01 pm
Which do you choose?

I was reading tigers blog where he posted a link from tiller I guess I needed both of these, here I sit with tears in my eyes. As Tiller put it, get your favorite drink, instead of posting my comment on their blogs. I am posting it here

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Choose Happiness! And Choose Optimism!

A glimpse of me

Here lately I have turned into the one person that drives me crazy. The whiner, complainer, and place blame person.....grrrr I am usually the person that says "everything happens for a reason, what lesson am I suppose to learn here."

Nope not me, I have been whining about why I can't find a full time job, finances are extremely tight for us with me not working since November. Thoughts of "why did I quit that job" hit me over the head. When I cant breath from the thought of even staying there I am reminded as to why I left. After reading these two posts it hit me over the head like a ton of bricks....duh

The more I whine, complain and blame, the worse things are getting. I haven't ever been like this. I am serious. I grew up in an alcoholic, poor, abusive home, was sexually abused as child. Have I ever once used that as a crutch....HELL NO...I learned from it. I have been thankful for it. You know why? It made me a better MOM, Wife and the person I am today. I wear my emotional and mental scars proudly.

I have always smiled no matter what, cried when I needed to, laughed when the going got tough, and spit in the face of those nay Sayers (ok so I didn't really do that, I think about it )

Now I am taking in my best friend wgangeleyes who is so into meth that it is now eating away at her body I have always loved her NO MATTER WHAT, without judgment, fault, condemnation. I have been there for 25 years for her. Her and I have been threw HELL together. I know when she needs me, and she doesn't even have to pick up a phone and call me. I have woke up in the middle of the night crying and wretch for the phone, only to hear her tears on the other end. I am for the first time in 25 years completely terrified for not only her. Me as well. I know that she needs some positive in her life, she needs to see what real love, real life, real happiness is all about.

Everything happens for a reason, I choose to be optimistic about my life again. I know that with the faith of the powers of the universe. All will work out for the best. IN not only my life but hers as well

People are put into our lives at the moment that we need them. To give us answers that we need. I want to thank Tiller for posting that, Tiger for sending me over there. For their posts I truly needed

Please go over there to both of them and you decide.

Hugs and smiles

AdultFriendFinder hotties this picture is of Wgangeleyes and myself, please keep it up there and its copyrighted (c)2003 bct2esi and wgangeleyes


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/28/2006 5:17 pm

{{{{{Tiger}}}}} you are such a sweet sweet man, now you have done what Tiller did, brought tears to my eyes

You are such a dear friend, thank you for your encouragement and prayers

I do keep going back and reading your words when I feel myself start to slide

Thank you for you

hugs, luvs and smiles


TTigerAtty 62M

2/28/2006 4:00 pm

Sweetie, I am so happy that my little blog posting on Optimism and my link to Tiller's excellent posting regarding Happiness has helped you draw upon your own personal reserves of strong character! I am honored to have been but a very small instrument to bring you back into touch with your own true personality. I know you will handle all the adversity in your life right now, and that you will be a blessing to your best friend! Hold to her tightly and wrestle her away from her terrible meth addiction! You must, hon, or she will certainly die! Our Optimist Club has had presentations by law enforcement authorities regarding the meth problem in Missouri which is considerable! Meth is an EVIL and HORRIBLE drug! God bless you for taking your friend in! You are saving her life! My thoughts, prayers, and best wishes are with you, Sparky and your best friend [blog wgangeleyes]! God bless you all!


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/28/2006 7:41 am

Cowboy thank you When we were on the Ranch, I wasn't like this. It is amazing how one can allow others to suck you down.

Thank you for you

hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/28/2006 7:37 am

Keith, I am now doing that. So you have any good lemonade recipes I can try?

hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/28/2006 7:36 am

2x I am honored that you stopped by. Thank you for you. Between you, Tiller, and Tiger. I am dancing

With the help of so many of you on this site. I have started seeing the "ME" I like. My best friend is seeing it and hearing it as well

Thank you for you encourgaement

hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/27/2006 4:15 pm

Swest that is what we are doing

thank you for you

hugs and smiles


Cowboy_Deluxe 38M

2/27/2006 1:51 am

Thats it right there. I don't complain not only because it drags me down, but in reality it could be soo much worse. I feel really sorry for your friend, and the life that she is living, I hope that you do become a *light* for her in her darkness.

Cowboy


keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
2/26/2006 8:46 pm

Why be miserable? Keep on makin' lemonade from life's lemons!


2xmrclean 58M

2/26/2006 3:01 pm

I knew I was right! you are that kinda girl. keep chin up so eyes can see the wonder of the heavens.for that is where your soul resides. and with your friend embrace all that is past ,present and future. then remember our lives are but a momentary dance we take our heart's desires and share them with our friends. so now girl dance.......... b) 2x


rm_SWSunset64 51F
3940 posts
2/26/2006 2:46 pm

Your friend is very luck to have someone like you, in her life. Just take one day at a time, things will get better.


FINE AS WINE IN 2009!
SWSunset64


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/26/2006 11:05 am

OOOPPPPSSSSS I forgot to say, already dancing,

wiggles my sexiness through blog land

hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/26/2006 11:02 am

{{{katey}}} girlfriend, so true

hugs, luvs and smiles

thank you for you


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/26/2006 7:24 am

{{{{{Pleasure}}}}} thank you my friend

Thank you for you

Hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/26/2006 7:22 am

Mofun....thank you for stopping by. Thank you for your kind words. I truly believe that people are brought into our lives for a reason. Tiller is a blessing, so is Tiger

Thank you for you, you are a beautiful person as well

Thanks for stopping by my little corner of blogville

hugs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
2/26/2006 7:17 am

{{{{{Tiller}}}}} You were the one that helped me see this I am so thankful to you I am tired of the "pity party" dang I don't like this person I have allowed myself to become My best Friend needs to see positive, not negative.

You are right its amazing what this "blog thingy" has done to some of us. I think its because we truly get to see that in this vast society of life. There are so many others out there who have gone through something similar to us and if they can break free why can't I. I know it has opened my eyes in many different ways.

Slowly one baby step at a time, I will get back to that happy person I was 3 years ago The one that spits in the face of Nay Sayers
Smiles in the face of "EVERYTHING"

Thank you for you and your words, you are the beautiful one.

hugs and smiles


pleasureyourclit 66M
836 posts
2/26/2006 3:47 am

Keep the faith sweetie!


MOfunNOWWOW 55F

2/25/2006 11:39 pm

Tiller said you are beautiful but even more so on the inside. Unconditional love is the most beautiful gift we possess and rarely use. Blessings on you both!!! hugs


MOMO
just a squirrel trying to get a nut


tillerbabe 55F

2/25/2006 10:17 pm

Where have you been? My God you are beautiful! I am constantly floored by the level of integrity this "blog thingy" attracts.

And here, I found another "Kewl" person in you!

If I had anything to do with helping you, I am honored. The reality is...you would have found "it" eventually, because this way of thinking is already a part of you.

We all have rotten days, weeks, months, years even....and I firmly believe we all need each other when one of us falls down and gets "lost".

My best to you! {=} And thank you for visiting!


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