The hatred with in....................  

rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
998 posts
1/24/2006 7:33 pm
The hatred with in....................

Your so wrapped up in yourself,
You don’t know who you are,
Behind the mask, there is nothing.
Your hate for yourself rubs off,
You don’t understand why no one likes you
The anger, the pain, the sting,
Of not being yourself.
Do you even know who you are?
Your hate, for yourself rubs off,
You are bitter now,
You don’t give potential friends a chance
You hide behind your bitchiness
Because you hurt so much.
Everyone else has trouble,
But yours………
They are always worse,
Is it manufactured? To make people
Feel sorry for you?
Your hate for yourself, rubs off
Don’t you see?
Only you can change
But…….
Your so wrapped up in you
You don’t know who you are.

Jan 24, 2006© MLL
bct2esi, poem my daughter just wrote
picture is mine of my puppet monkey "george"



rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:47 pm

holy cow you all you should see what she whipped out last night about the betrayel of a trusted and friend? dayumnnnn

I am trying to get her to let me post it, wow I cant beleive that she is mine

Cant tell that I am a proud MOM can you? post my childrens art work, the photos that she takes and now her poems. NOPE not one bit proud *giggle*

thank you all for taking the time to read her words

I adore all of you, and appreciate all of you I cant express this enough to all of you

If AdultFriendFinder wouldn't get all bent out of shape, I would let her post on here, but........ not going to push it

hugs, luvs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:45 pm

holy cow you all you should see what she whipped out last night about the betrayel of a trusted and friend? dayumnnnn

I am trying to get her to let me post it, wow I cant beleive that she is mine

Cant tell that am a proud MOM can you? post my childrens art work, the photos that she takes and now her poems. NOPE not one bit proud *giggle*

thank you all for taking the time to read her words

I adore all of you, and appreciate all of you I cant express this enough to all of you

hugs, luvs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:41 pm

{{{curious}}} I let her read your posts as well, and she said thank you

thanks for stopping by

hugs, luvs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:40 pm

honey (sprky) that made me almost cry when I read it, you better quit showing her how much she means to you....j/k

she is pretty damn sharp isn't she, I guess that comes from your more dominate, superior genes...ROFLAO

we love you very much

then, now, always and forever
me


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:37 pm

Jojo, well said glad to see that now you only torment yourself...hehehhehe

maybe I should post this on my group? wink

she said thank you

hugs, luvs and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/26/2006 7:35 pm

{{{katey}}} that is what concerns me, she is way to deep and mature for her age at times..hehehehehee

I love her anyway

she said thank you

hugs, luvs and smiles


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
1/26/2006 4:24 am

She has some real talent. Please pass along my thanks for sharing her writing with us. Beautifully done.


rm_SprkyCplLv69 57M/50F
32 posts
1/25/2006 6:00 pm

As usual Sis your pretty damn sharp ,even though it pains me to say that .lmao I can only hope that you stay as mentally sounds as you have shown to be as a young lady as you age thatk you for being my daughter


rm_jojoyoyojojo 56M
73 posts
1/25/2006 12:49 pm

So right on target.
I've heard "if you haven't forgotten, you haven't forgiven".
So often people say they want to move on and get over stuff but all they do is keep rehashing it over and over again with anyone who will listen instead of just letting go and moving on. That's not to say that you shouldn't talk things out, but there are limits to everything. The other thing about this is that some people just seem to need to create pain in their lives to make themselves feel something.
I know these things are true cause I tortured myself when I was much younger. Now that I am more mature I only torment myself!
PEACE and THANKS to your daughter


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/25/2006 6:20 am

art... how old do you think? Her age is in my blog as well as her Dads'[blog sprkycpllv69] we have both posted blogs about her

sneaky way to get you to read through blogs

hugs, luvs, and smiles


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/25/2006 6:15 am

All I can do is laugh! I cant even come up with a suitable reply. All I can do is laugh. That is good seriously
Love,Hugs,Kisses


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/25/2006 6:10 am

Well, she said thank you everyone... No it was not meant at that certain someone. She just wrote it, if it was dedicated to anyone it was dedicated to someone who used to be her best friend! Sorry for the light blue, she wanted it to be dark, but it was already approved before she could make changes, also it has some errors in it. That pissed her off but i wasnt supposed to tell you that . And the Monkey was her idea, he is supposed to look thoughtful, or that was the intent.
Love,Hugs,Kisses


pleasureyourclit 66M
836 posts
1/25/2006 12:30 am

Very nice...


rm_sharksnsails 45M
738 posts
1/24/2006 11:58 pm

My daughter writes poetry like that, this makes me miss her more.
But, at least I am proud of her abilities. she is very smart, like yours.

(less seriously),
when I read it, (and I don't know why)
that song "I touch myself" popped into my head, but with altered lyics
"I dont think about anybody else,
when I think about me I hit myself"

I dont know why, sorry to be funny on your serious post


rm_corezon 53F
3376 posts
1/24/2006 11:16 pm

See, you are raising your daughter right!


Deepthroat215 52M
328 posts
1/24/2006 8:53 pm

Very deep and very good!


rm_art_persists 51M
1789 posts
1/24/2006 8:25 pm

how old is she? Shows maturity in her writing...


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

1/24/2006 8:25 pm

Beautifully written....makes me think it should be dedicated to someone I know...

HUGS~~~MANDY

Always The Bitch


NickRules999 39M
9462 posts
1/24/2006 8:16 pm

I like that poem. I can somewhat relate to it. I know my blog has been angst ridden as of late, except for today's post, which is more light hearted, but when I was younger, I struggled a lot with depression. My late teens/early 20s were the worst time for me. In those days, all I did was stay in the house, feeling sorry for myself. There were times I came close to swallowing handfuls of pills, knowing god wouldn't stop me. But, I had a need to survive. I had hope. And I'm alive today. It hasn't reached that point since then, and I hope I never fall into that again, though last week, when I posted about Sheri (I mentioned in the post her name was spelled differently), I was a miserable bastard. But I'm trying. And I'm fighting whatever self hate I have left.

That is a great poem. Your daughter has a real gift.

Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?


TTigerAtty 62M

1/24/2006 7:55 pm

Thanks to your daughter!


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