So much disappointment...  

rm_BabyIsHotxx 48F
84 posts
2/7/2006 6:58 pm
So much disappointment...


I feel so sad right now... so disappointed.

I started this quest with such enthusiasm, such high hopes. I feel like they've not only been trampled on, but also ground into the dirt. I don't know what to do at this point. Should i just give up here, and start having 1-night-stands with any man i think is attractive and who will hold still long enough? I've had so many promises. I've had men who sounded so sincere. It tears at me inside to be disappointed so many times. I've been looking for 2 1/2 years!! (yes, YEARS !)

I've had so many men ask why it would take so long. Did you notice those men have not helped me? Why would they ask such a question if they do the exact same thing as almost every man before them? I'm not ugly (despite the insults from a few obnoxious men), i have a good body that has been taken care of, i'm told that i'm a good kisser.... But i just can't get past all the games that are being played. There are a few men recently who really seemed nice, sincere, like they understood my quest, promised they would not treat me the way i've been before....

One man in particular, i was so sure that i would finally get what i needed. We talked about the problems i've had so far. He apologized to me for the treatment i've gotten from other men. We talked online for hours at a time. We even discussed the way i might explain to the child if he wasn't around. I said i would tell the child that "mommy pushed him out of the sandbox because he was throwing sand". But when it came time to help, when i was fertile, he just stopped responding to my msgs. And then afterwards, seemed so sincere in his apologies. It wouldn't hurt so much if i hadn't believed so strongly that he really would follow thru on his promises. If he reads this, maybe he'll know how much he's hurt me.

I'm so tired of this search. So tired of all the disappointments, month after month. Where do i go from here...?....

rm_BabyIsHotxx 48F
16 posts
2/7/2006 7:31 pm

I'm working on the staying cheerful part

laugh

smile

dull

sad

cry
Oops! Need to push the corners back up

tongue

smile


rm_BabyIsHotxx 48F
16 posts
2/14/2006 7:40 pm

This is the only site i have posted on. I've never been on craigslist, but have heard it mentioned. Would i get better results if i posted there as well? I have spoken to quite a few people from this site, and met some of them.

Ian, this is a direct quote from your profile.
"I get more interested in a real woman urging me onward, inward, and upward. Being raised Catholic makes your brain hard-wired a certain way toward family-making. Nothing turns me on more than when a woman tells me that her 'favorite part of sex is when she will feel me coming inside her.' We Catholics are all about babies, whether you can have them isn't relevant, but it is what we men are working for during lovemaking!"

Is your search so sad that you go out of your way to slam anyone around you? Are you still mad because i called you on some of your inconsistancies when you were harrassing me with email?

Anyone who only wants to slam me will be banned from comments. Each of us has only so much time on this planet. I'm not going to waste more of mine on receiving verbal abuse. Where in the bible does it say go out and find someone to pursecute? That was scribbled into the margins by someone other than christ.


timetoplayincho 56M
153 posts
4/23/2006 2:52 pm

Wow, 35mm, that's harsh. Where did you get all high and mighty? Having read a LOT of profiles here, BIHxx seems to be one of the more genuine people here.


timetoplayincho 56M
153 posts
4/23/2006 2:56 pm

And while I'm at it, 35mm, have you taken a look around this site? While good advice in general, telling someone here to "go to church" seems particularly inappropriate. Are you clueless, or just a prick?


rm_yooper822 55M

8/6/2006 10:13 am

I think if all you are after is a child then it shouldnt be a big deal, you are obviously a beautiful woman and should have no problem accomplishing that without all the BS that is going on here on this site. You are obviously damaged goods and cant close the deal under normal circumstances and have found your self here trying to close the deal without the face to face and still.....you cant close the deal!! To Bad, So Sorry....wish you the best of luck but I feel sorry for the guy who actually falls for this sham!


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