Procrastination..........  

rm_AmishAmy 100F
842 posts
1/9/2006 3:57 pm

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Procrastination..........

i'm a doer....plain and simple...
motivated....
determined...
organized...
driven...
i have very little patience with ignorance.....
and even less with incompetence...
i'm effective
i'm efficient
and i accomplish many tasks in a short amount of time.......
procrastination is not a word that i associate with myself......
except now.....

i need to have a conversation...
an extremely difficult conversation......
with someone i once loved....
but i'm continuing to go through the motions...
not with malignity.....
but foolishness....

my heart is not evil...
but i'm feeling evil at the moment....
because i can't seem to say what i need to say....
it would be the end to a significant time of my life....
and my emotions are mixed....
i'm sad that i will undoubtedly lose a person who had a profound effect in my life...
but excited in the possibilities that lie ahead of me...

where does one find strength...
when there is a need for this conversation?


rm_puisscent 49M
3 posts
1/9/2006 4:57 pm

Has the need for this conversation come about because of your self belief?

Are you all that you think you are?

There are a few bold claims in your statement.

A little humility might go a long way.


rm_art_persists 51M
1789 posts
1/9/2006 5:14 pm

Always ask "what will this do for me?"
misguided or angry deeds generally set one back


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
1/9/2006 5:22 pm

You say what you need to say, because YOU need to say it; nothing more nothing less. You have the stregth that you know you are making the right decision, and tht you have friends to support you in that.


RockPebble 69M
2485 posts
1/9/2006 5:36 pm

One finds the strength within. Once you convince yourself that the delay can cause as much pain as the conversation you will do what has to be done.


norprin5 55M

1/9/2006 5:49 pm

i've always found it's best to get the worst part over first...

good luck, amy

King Nor XVIII


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 6:38 pm

Mystery - Have the conversation when you KNOW it is time. Only you will know when its time. Maybe it is now and you are just fighting it. Maybe its not time now. You alone know the feeling and the need.



I am not dead yet


rm_AmishAmy 100F
246 posts
1/9/2006 7:46 pm

Nooner: thank you for your advice.....you've educated me in more ways than you know....and i'm doing ok....ditto on the missing thing

pussy: i'm not going to explain myself to you.......you don't motivate me to take that kind of time or energy......however, i will say that the need for this conversation has come about because i can't commit to anyone emotionally until this conversation has taken place.......it's called "respect"......look it up.....

art: i'm neither angry nor misguided........i'm just trying to do the right thing......

elbman: simple and to the point....i like that....thank you

rockpebble: thanks.....you're right...

norprin: i wonder if he'll listen to anything else after the bad news.......and would there be anything else to say......hmm

bardi: i realize i'm pressuring myself.....but i feel like i need to end this chapter before i turn the page.......if it was strictly physical.....only sex......this would be no problem......but there's emotion involved.....on both sides of this........that's the sense of urgency........and that's the difficulty in having this conversation......


AlbertPrince 57M

1/10/2006 3:57 am

get your ass in gear .....

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bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 6:47 am

The possibilities that lie ahead.. Yes they should excite you.



I am not dead yet


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