Euphoric Paranoia..........  

rm_AmishAmy 100F
842 posts
2/20/2006 1:44 pm

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4/4/2006 5:09 pm

Euphoric Paranoia..........


it's funny how things can change in just an instant....
how you can alter your movement slightly....
and change an outcome entirely....

we go through our every day...
like robots at times..
or so it seems...
and then
you meet that certain someone
that messes up that routine
unintentionally of course....

you may even become irritated
at first...
the nerve of that person
who does he think he is...
thinking he can
pull me out of my zone...

and the thought of him
even though you fight it
but the thought of him
popping in and out of your mind
bothers you in a way
but makes you take a deeper breath
when you realize you're thinking about him again...

then you make a deal with yourself
since he won't let you slide by him
unnoticed...
you make this deal with yourself
that you'll try to be friends
even though
he's irritating beyond belief

and in between those
friendship moments
you think about him....
now...
back when...
and later...
and you think maybe...
just maybe...
he has the makings for a close friend...
but you know...deep down
you're fooling yourself....

it's those late night phonecalls
that are the culprit....
how does he know when to call me
how does he know when my guard is weak
or is it weak because it's him....

he's so calm about all this...
that pisses me off....
and i try to seem calm about this.....
but inside i'm panicked...

because he's grown on me...

i've grown accustomed to him...

and i worry...

that something's going to happen.....

and i'm going to fuck this all up....

elbman 41M  
2566 posts
2/20/2006 4:09 pm

Stop worrying, it acomplishes nothing but increasing paranoia and anxiety.....


norprin5 55M

2/20/2006 5:46 pm

i'm with elbman - worrying great for wrinkles and heartburn, but nothing else.

you'll be fine, luv

King Nor XVIII


TopFisher 63M

2/21/2006 6:18 am

What? Giggeling, yet subtlely.......

You are a woman right?

makes it oh so much easier fer sure.

Why do I have this concern for you over what I percieve may be your thoughts and actions??? Meet a guy= fuck a guy?

Well such aint so, but already know such, don't you?


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