Coming Clean and Scrubbing Up Again....  

rm_AmishAmy 100F
842 posts
1/29/2006 10:47 am

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4/20/2006 8:26 pm

Coming Clean and Scrubbing Up Again....


Take risks....fall down....clean up....take risks...

i know this isn't going to make me look all that great to say but...

i'm gonna miss sex......

because of everything that's happening here lately....

i have no choice but to make choices....

as odd as that is to read....

it makes sense to those that are in this spot....

and those who understand what's been happening with me lately...

and through all the heartache and the emotional puke i have sifted through....

my selfishness takes over and thinks about the sex i will no longer have....

this is tough when your body gets accustomed to being pleasured on a somewhat consistant level....

and sure...i'm not opposed to masturbation....

did i mention i have a toy now (woot)....

but let's face it....

masturbation is for maintainence upkeep purposes only.....

sure it feels good....but it's like chinese food.....1/2 hour later....etc...

so yeah....that's gonna be just one part of the challenge....

leaving behind some great sex...

and somewhere along the line....

i have had a change in my thinking of finding sexual satisfaction in the physical partnership sense.....

casual sex is no longer an option....

it's too risky......and it's bitten me on the ass before....literally

damnit....damnit.....damnit....

sexual everyday real life friends are not an option.....

i value my friendships too much to fuck that up.....again literally....

so what does that leave me...

besides my vibrator and a shitload of extra batteries??....

i have you.......and you....and you....

people i don't know but that i know on a profound level....

not necessarily a friend in the traditional sense.....

and certainly not casual in the traditional sense...

so yes....the pressure lies on you and you and you....

i am drawn to 3.....

i have a desire for all of them...

so now what??.......

elbman 41M  
2566 posts
1/29/2006 2:14 pm

From someone who lives out of a suitcase on a regular basis, with typically only a know his schedule for the following week on short notice; I can completely sympathize. Self maintaining is just that maintaining to keep from going crazy, typically leaving more desire than when you started.


bardicman 50M

1/29/2006 3:22 pm

Sounds like I dont get to bite you on the ass.



You could start by answering your phone every once in awhile. Well that is if someone happened to be trying to call you.



I am not dead yet


norprin5 55M

1/29/2006 6:56 pm

*sigh* more hugs, luv

King Nor XVIII


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