Dominance, submission  

rm_Aestolia 36T
34 posts
2/15/2006 9:58 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Dominance, submission

about me:

ive never been a sub or a slave to anyone, but i know it's something i want, i can feel it inside me. The desire to obey, the deiser to serve, the desire to please. the fear of displeasing. just thinking of it all sends shivers through me.


i've also a profile on Plenty of Fish (for those that know it), another hook up site. I make mention of myself and the desire for a Master/Mistress.

much of the same, 'wanna fuck tonight' etc etc comes through, to which I made clear i'm not as interested in as I am in meeting people to see if we click to find those friends with benefits.

some claimed to be Dom, but it's something I find you can usually tell in their words, and nothing seemed truthful, until one message.

all the subjet line said was 'Now.' and the message was as simple as 'I want to talk, right now... ...drop me a line back if you want to be told what to do.'

the message it's self had this force that the others didn't. I feel it maybe what i'm looking for, though i am somewhat fearful. through emails he's made some demands of me, and i respond. the very thought excites me.

but i worry now, because one thing which is most important in a D/s relation of anykind, is trust. i've not met him, but for somereason i'm made to blindly trust.

will i hurt myself in doing this? perhaps
is it worth the risk of doing so? perhaps
am i being intelligent in obeying? not at all
then why? i'm already being lead by a collar i forged for myself, it's not physical, but i find any with the proper Dominance, is able to find the ring and pull...

princessSinsia 57F

2/15/2006 12:22 pm

I have been the dominant female always.
Do what I say and what I want NOW.
Finding myself wearing my silver collar almost daily and obeying.
I was allowing my partner to explore his dominant side, pulling by hair, spanking my ass, collaring me and he now loves it.
I have not lost control in allowing him to explore,
I still have the upper hand and he has yet to realize it.
Please take it slow as ultimate trust is the key to a dom/sub encounter.

rm_Aestolia 36T

2/15/2006 2:53 pm

Thank You princess,

i am aware of the need for trust, but for some reason i'm just drawn. The worst part is, i know it could have been anyone, the more dominant they are, the more likley i am to lay at their feet.

i have a friend who has tried to get me to explore a dominant side, but it feels odd to me i don't know that i could ever do so, unless it was in service to a Dom.

_CoffeeNoCream_ 52F

2/15/2006 3:30 pm

Just be careful, liefje

X Coffee

rm_Aestolia 36T

2/15/2006 7:36 pm

thank you Coffee, after speaking to some people I'm going to see what I can do to help preserve myself.

((had to look up liefje, but i know it now ^.^))

Top_and_Bottom69 65M/65F
5 posts
2/17/2006 4:56 pm

All I can say is ...take your time . . .explore it all. If you have a submissive side, it needs the right Dominant to push the buttons. Though the Ottawa community is relatively small, it swirls and changes ... the right person will come along.

D(the Top half)
ps - think we met Thurs evening.

rm_Aestolia 36T

2/18/2006 5:09 am

i've a decent memory, we did indeed meet on Thursday.

Thank you very for much for your words, i've heard them from many, but am still trying to drill them into my mind.

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