missing whatever  

rm_9gabriel 47M
9 posts
12/24/2005 10:03 pm

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missing whatever


xmas
it's so full of memories: plastic Mattel SWAT truck and men, with little guns and bulging ...guns... muscles that prepare them for the entirely physical job of killing those goddamn bad guys

home
i'm at somebody's mom's - and I like the mom, but I'm not so hot on the somebody, who used to be an active partner in my bed

but the world's a complicated place, full of innuendo and flow charts, and I admit I just don't know shit

I want to drive away, leave my truck in a seller's lot to get the most he/ she can get for it, charter a private and land the dog and I in, say, England, or, no: Scotland, where I could still basically speak the language but it would be overwhelmingly obvious that I was NOT in the US, I had taken an action to move the fuck on and do a dream and see how the motherfucker works out

but I like to cover my six more than that

I'm tired
I want to believe, oddly enough, in that world they identify as "love." I want to feel courage and hope and faith and stuff.

so be it, right, Dad? Amen, and let God give us the grace, and the shotgun's far away, and one of these days I'll get down to the range and see how flying clay objects fly thru the sky, after learning what "choke" is and having a clue

peace, patience, self-respect

boat drinks

may all that was good come together again in me, augmented by history and lessons, that I may make things better and... well, and laugh and leap and fuck till it's time for a healthy sleep

just a healthy sleep

just the sleep you get when you're excited about tomorrow, and you're ready to face the day, and morning is a time of possiblity

let the games begin

rm_goddess1946 106F
13518 posts
12/24/2005 11:06 pm

Sending you Peace tonight...and all that you dream for.
Merry Christmas....

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


rm_9gabriel 47M
7 posts
12/26/2005 2:38 am

Are you goddess of the sea or the land or the wind or all of it? I had a dream a long time ago; I was a wizard collecting priests' souls in a cathedral when the armored guards recognized me. Taking the souls I'd collected, now manifested as something more arcane than breadsticks, I threw their bodies into the onrush of the soldiers and flew into the air... Something held me back, though, and I was eight feet in the air with the recovering guards surging toward me... And I collected myself, exploded upward and out thru the roof, into the night. Arrowing over fields and forest, my robes flapping, I crossed great bodies of water and hills, and... Topping a ridge, I could see my keep silhouetted against the night sky, riding the spine of a mountain range and waiting patiently for me. Whaddaya think?


rm_goddess1946 106F
13518 posts
12/26/2005 12:53 pm

I think that I, more often than not, think too much...

what I am hearing as you write, however, is that you are an intense man with emotions that run deep and visions that are expansive and creatively charged. one who questions and one who sees the darkness as well as the light.

To answer your question in open forum...
I embrace all of the elements, Gabriel and my destiny number is the number 9. Believing in the divinity of our souls, I acknowledge the wizard that also lives within you....and I...and every one of us... {=}

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


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