let the day begin  

rm_9gabriel 47M
9 posts
2/3/2006 6:47 am

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11/21/2006 7:09 pm

let the day begin

i should be asleep
haven't been on the net for two weeks, there're emails from school that i should probly read, and i gotta take the moving truck back in... 2 1/2 hours, but here i am

what am i doing here? reaching out, reaching out, looking for something real - on the net, out here in cyberspace, where there's some padding between me and any dancing partner, where i can disappear whenever i want

one maybe sitdown for sushi & i don't need to see the chick again - call her in two months, maybe un-store her furniture for her, maybe leave it somewhere that will allow me to do it w/o seeing her. what is this "love" thing?

out there around this planet other folks typing, reading, sending information across wires and circuits, maybe bouncing it off satellites, the messages interweaving with high-security military traffic and bank transfers shifting millions of dollars... franks (they still exist?), euros, colones, pounds, deutschmarks. what's the point of all the people sending all the information, where does all that energy go? progress - survival - evolution - the deepening of knowledge - pleasure/ pain - infinite monkeys with infinite keyboards working on the novel's first sentence

i once thought there was a meaning to all this, but it appears to be subjective. may you sleep sweet, my once-true love; may this day go well for us both. may i let go, may you find heartsease and whatever it is that we need to give a fuck about anyone else. let the day begin

rm_9gabriel 47M
7 posts
11/21/2006 7:08 pm

the "chick" in the second para was the ex i thought i oughta seriously harm myself for. cuz i'm bright like that

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