where does the night call me?  

rm_8lm4u 54M
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4/17/2005 10:24 pm

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11/14/2006 3:41 am

where does the night call me?

his humor was a defence mechanism
it was also a test
if it pissed you off
you were too stupid
if it frightened you
you were a pussy
if it offended
you were way too uptight

after years of emotional adventurism
he had gotten
cautious
not from the pain or the loss
that you can adapt to, live with...
survive
part of the risks he loved and feared so much

it was the disapointment that was crushing
not seeing the traps set
the games set in motion
the hoops to jump through
disapointed in his deception of himself
his denial of his own instict
his willingness to ignore/believe
the haunting shadows of stalking cynisim

at lest his test was up-front
straight forward
honest
caveat empour

and so he sat smoking in the dark on his balcony
looking at the moon
and wondering
if...when...where...


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