He loves me...  

rm_36specialk 48F
731 posts
11/29/2005 1:56 pm

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He loves me...

I've been reading a book that was suggested to me by my Mr.X. Today I read something that floored me.... When you build up walls around yourself, you don't lock everyone else out, you alienate yourself from everyone.

That's what I've been doing, alienating myself.

I talked to him last night. About 2 hours into our conversation I told him or asked him rather that I'd like to take back everything that I said to him two friday's ago. I'd told him that I felt as if I needed to back off a bit. Do you know what he told me? He told me that I sounded like a 16 year old. He infuriated me, I was so pissed I couldn't even talk to him. He asked me my opinion of him and I shot back with "I think you're mean and calculating and manipulative". He then went on to tell me a story of another woman that he knew that told him that he's manipulative. I couldn't figure out why he was telling me this story, but I guess he was just giving me time to cool off. Anyway, I did cool off, our conversation continued and he wound up telling me that I'm the only person that he's fallen in love with since he's been in America (about 3 years).

He loves me...this man that I have been trying for weeks to figure out how to tell him how I feel about him and he tells me that he loves me. Just like that. He just says it. I thought I'd cry...he made me the happiest 16 year old ever last night.

Now I know, you're wondering if I told him that I loved him back right? Well, I didn't. I didn't think it was the right time for me to tell him. I'll know when the right time is and it's not going to be over the phone, it'll be face to face.

Wow, he loves me.

Mmphmm 45M
592 posts
11/29/2005 3:13 pm

Wow.... that's half our lives and a bit more for you ago! (Lo

It seems like yesterday. xxx

Mmphmm 45M
592 posts
11/30/2005 4:36 am

Awww bless.... I know what you mean.

Isn't this weird... I've never cyber'd (anything) with anyone before until I came on AdultFriendFinder. It just never figured...

Oh, I fully understand about alienating yourself from everyone...
I've done it(past tense)... not consciously though, not in the begining.
I know I'm being vague, I hope you don't misunderstand... I've never written about it before... there's so much that would need to be said... and stuff that's never been said, maybe AdultFriendFinder isn't the place to write about it.

Idealist/Realist (I'm no saint)But I'm proud of me again as are my friends... but there's a long way to go, life's just one continuous lesson isn't it (bastard) LoL

You never know... I may sneak little tit bit's in my posts every now and then, and with a grand finale, the last chapter could be my 100th blog. xxx

HeardLankaMalls 55M
2925 posts
11/30/2005 4:41 am

Congrats k!
Hope things continue to work out

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
12/1/2005 5:40 am

Congrats on the love thing K. I hope he was just teasing about the sounding like a 16 year old thing. I hope that you were just teasing about him about being mean, calculating, and manipulative.

Don't leave him wondering too long about whether or not you love him.

On a totally urelated note, to fulfill my duty to the Holy Priestess of Holy Holes as her personal fluffer, I have been instructed to go around to the blogs of female members of the dead sheep boinking social club and leave a comment for each of you stating that I am ready to take care of any … err … fluffing needs you may wish to have satisfied. Please tell her that I have been an obedient if somewhat tardy fluffer.

If you do require any fluffing services you can follow me back to Fluffyland.

Welcum To Fluffyland

S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

rm_titsandtires 51M/41F
3656 posts
12/1/2005 8:49 pm

So I guess the phone sex and waffles thing we had going isn't gonna happen now, huh?

I'm glad things are working out for you 36 (i feel like "get smart" when i call you 36) He's not only smart, he's lucky.


rm_RxSUGAR 60M
102 posts
12/1/2005 9:36 pm

But we alienate for a reason,most of the time a subconcious one. Go slow girl. You are learning lifes best,that we all have self-imposed obsticles and when we discover them we are a step closer to heaven. Again,go slow,search and you will know if he is right or not. Remember,trust your feelings about him,or any man but,only you will know who and when 'love' is real if you will not enter it in a self-seeking attitude. Only you will know

DTand5Speed 41M/50F

12/2/2005 3:40 pm

**claps!!!** I'm so happy for you! - DT

rm_titsandtires 51M/41F
3656 posts
12/2/2005 7:47 pm

shoe phone sex! ROFLMFAOOOOO!!!!!

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