|Blogs > rm_36specialk > Can someone tell me why???|
A letter to Mr.X
A letter to Mr.X
I tried to send this message to you using an alternate route, but it wouldn't work, so I'm leaving it here where I hope you'll see it.
What were the chances of us meeting?
Don't you think it's funny how we met? I never met anyone that way before, or
You asked me a long time ago if I thought everything happens for a reason, and
I told you then that I do. So, that being established, what is the reason for
Option 1: So you could teach me how to live, what it's like to love someone
without expectation. So that when you are ready to move on from this
relationship we have together that I'll know what it's suppose to feel like
when you truely love someone. You show me everyday that no matter what the
circumstances, if something is worth fighting for, you should fight for it.
Afterall, anything worthy of fighting for is going to prove it's worth by
fighting back. You've shown me that there are still good people worthy of
love, worthy of trust, worthy or loyalty. I love you with all my heart and if
you were sent to me to teach me something, then I'm thankful. I'll be
heartbroken I'm sure when you're no longer a part of my life, but I'll always
be thankful for the time I get to spend with you.
Option 2: So I could help you with this situation you're going through. Why
else would I meet you after my divorce, when I was ready to move on. Why
didn't I meet you sooner if it were not destined to be when it was? The timing
couldn't be more perfect. If you were to move in with me, you could
concentrate on your test in June, and take off all the time you need
to study. I am on my own two feet financially, I don't expect or need anything
from you other than your heart. When you told me that you wanted to get
married on friday, but you didn't say to me, my heart sank into my feet for
fear that you would marry someone else just because I couldn't have children
for you, or maybe you were scared to ask me for some reason. If you want to
marry someone, you can trust me not to take advantage of you. When the two
years is over and I can apply for your permanant residence, I would do so
gladly, and you could make your decision from there what you wanted to do. To
help you is all I want to do. I would love to have you and puppy come live
with me and my daughter. I know she would love it too. Until you could find
something different, you'd be closer to work, and you wouldn't have to fear
being fired. You'd be able to go home in April without fear of not being able
to return, and you wouldn't have to worry about asking for the time off and
getting it approved with the company.
I know you have lots of other friends that would be more than happy to help
you, and if that's what you're more comfortable with, then please, please, do
it for your own benefit. I love you and just want what's best for you, but I
agree, you should marry someone, I wish for my own heart's sake that it would
be me, but I understand that you've got so many other friends that you've known
longer and may trust more, I'm not sure. But you need to do something, you
can't keep fighting this neverending battle and gaining no ground. You need to
go home in April, you need to take time off to study for your exam.
You need the opportunity to apply for a position with companies without needing
to be sponsored. Think of how many more options you'll have.
Life isn't fair sometimes, and the good guys don't always come in first. But,
I love you and want to help you, so please, please, let me help you.
I would never be able to say all of this to you without bursting into tears, so
that is the reason I am leaving it here.
The only things I have to offer you are my heart and the opportunity to live a
better life without the constant search for a sponsor. My house is modest, but
my heart is large, you're already living in one, now please consider moving
into the other.
Whatever your concerns, I'm sure we can work through them, and come up with
some sort of compromise or solution. If you want to sell the house and move
somewhere else, well, I've been thinking about selling the house for a few
months now anyway.
Please, just think about it.
With my sincerest love,
2/21/2006 11:23 am
What a wonderful woman!|
2/23/2006 12:06 am
Wow! Wow! Wow!|
2/27/2006 10:34 pm
You think too much.Not that it's not good for you but sometimes it can be a bit cloying. Take a break, relax.Find a nice isolated spot on a beach at night,lay down, empty your mind. Look up at all those stars, feel the cool wind blowing over you, almost teasing. Listen to the waves crashing in, almost like a rythym, dancing with each other. Smell the hint of salt in the air, briney, which only the ocean can give you. Feel the seductiveness of all your senses, let loose as if you were floating in the vast sea,a baby being coddled by the swell of the surfs.Let all your worries and anxiety drift away, even if its for a bit. Take a break, relax. Why?....just because....|
3/2/2006 6:53 am
just dropping by to say hi!|