Self-esteem... self-improvement  

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5/24/2006 9:56 pm

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5/25/2006 2:31 am

Self-esteem... self-improvement

I signed up with my campus' gym and started working out with a personal trainer this week... I'm finding myself fascinated with fitness and health recently, so I'm having a lot of fun.

But I didn't work out today as I'd scheduled, because I pushed myself a bit too hard lifting (whoops..) and I can't, uh, bend my arms...

So that was a bit of a downer and left me with nothing to do. It's interesting, even to me, to see my own transition to someone craving physical attention... and man, this is going to be a painfully long and boring summer without it.

Of course, it really boils down to self-improvement... learning and understanding my surroundings (specifically, the human body - my own and others). I find I'm interested in recording my sex acts, more for studious review than arousal.

Anyway, with my free time today, looking for the means to an end (my old philosophy prof would point out my first ethical mistake here) I decided to take some suggestive photos of myself.

Well, not one to come away from an experience without a kernel of knowledge, today's lesson is: if you are not comfortable with your body/penis, taking pictures of both and measuring the latter is probably NOT the best way to boost your self-esteem.

This is even after reading the big vs. small comparison that helped me see a smaller/average penis in a more positive light. Unfortunately, I still fell slightly below average - and wow! such a powerful negative connotation that carries... this is probably the maddest I've ever been at my penis.

Shame, really... I thought we were really starting to click...

In case I write something that someone finds interesting, look me up on AIM as: Martaius

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