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i hate this!
it's 3:28 in the freaking morning and i'm up thinking about being ME!
why is it that when you get comfortable with yourself, someone has to up and say something mean to you? i'm talking about being ME. i am who i am and you can't change that. i try my hardest everyday to be what you think is "perfect", but i can't do it anymore! i am not skinny, i am not the most beutifull thing you have ever seen and i am not going to listen to you!
i think that if i was to say one thing that i truely DIS-LIKE about this world today is that no one really cares about anyone anymore, they just don't give a shit like they use to. ya know?
i tell myself everyday, cheri, your pretty, but how am i to believe that if at every turn, i get cut off? i get a mirror slammed in my face or a rude comment behind my back. why do i have to go through this EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE???
i must say though, idk why i am telling you all this, but i needed to vent, and who else to vent to then someone you don't know? i don't like pity parties and i hate ppl who think that they can fix it all. maybe i just need to reach out and feel something, or maybe someone, who knows what i mean.
then again, maybe i am just a crazy fat girl who needs to go to bed....
12/12/2005 6:12 am
Cheri, you are who you are, what ever you make of you is what you will get, if someone knocks you down it is because they are not worthly of you for who you are. Say the hell with the assholes and just be you and enjoy what you can to it's fullest. |
Remember the people that like you not the people you want to like you that don't, if they are mean to you walk away and never look back at them. Your venting may help I sure hope it does.
Good luck with you, take care of you and your loved ones first, everyone else later.
Try and have a great life, you can if you want it.
Enjoy life forever.
12/13/2005 2:15 pm
i am so glad someone can understand me! shayedk, that's some damn good advice, thanks|