sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do  

rm_1981sugar 35F
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12/14/2005 9:07 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do

so, i think you all took my post last-night all wrong.
it isn't about answering the door, it's about being bored. it's about what happens when a sexually frustrated 24 yr old mother of a 2 yr old feels at the wee hours of the morning.
sometimes, i wish we were all on the same page here.
but we're not.
and i realize that.
so i will no longer write my "off the top of my head, spure of the moment, nothing at first poems" in here. it seems no one really gets them anyways.
i mean, poems are meant for the poets ears, cause the poet is the only one who can understand them for what they are.
just like a painting, only an artist knows what the painting really means.
ya following me?
and then i started to realize something else.
maybe this is all just a game we play...kinda like when your a virgin and you play spin the bottle or truth or dare...
then again, maybe we are all really here to "fuck around" but not actually fuck...
or we are here cause we say we want to meet ppl, friends and fuck friends, but we are reallyhere to tease...
then again, maybe i think to damn much, i mean i am a "big girl" and everyone that knows me knows i have a thinking problem, that's why i don't like school....
which doesn't make since to you all, butif you knew me, it would.
you see, i am the type of person who can be, how shall i put this....
my family tells me i am really smart but i have no drive to go back to school. i just can't bring myself to go somewhere that doesn't actually TEACH me anything...
they teach things, but stuff that is so fucking stupid i get bored and drift away from it.
i have signed up for scholl about 15 times in the last 6 months, went for a day and didn't go back. the longest i went was for about 2-3 weeks. amazing really.
i just don't like the ppl in these classes, they make me feel like...i don't know...
but i have to go back, i have to do what is truely right for me and if it means feelinglike a total fucking ass or whatever, i guess i'll just have to do it.

i hate not being able to do what i really want to do...but i hate school more. they treat you like your stupid and i hate feeling stupid. i also hate asking for help....

asking for help from a teacher is like going to the dentist when your 6-7. you know you have to go and you know your not going to like it but your forced to do it anyways cause they can help with something you have no clue how to fix or how to do yourself.


i know what i must do.
i know what i must accomplish.
and i know what will come out of it.

LOL, very funny cheri

***sighs a big deep breath***

so, i am going back to school, once agaian. man, i'm really going to hate this....

till we meet again...

***hugs & kisses***


P.S. i can't wait for this to be over.

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