Okay, duh...answered my own question...  

rbestgurl 55F
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10/2/2005 4:19 pm

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Okay, duh...answered my own question...

So on on the pity meter I scored myself a huge WHAAAAA...kinda made myself sick after I read what I wrote this morning...what happend to that self confident, assertive gal that I see staring back at me each morning in the mirror...

Stress...Homones...Senior moment(so soon?). Combination of all three.....

Could it be that I am giddy with happiness and the fear that it will all come crashing down around me.

Mr. Right for me, THE MAN, on the white horse, with flowers, poetry, candles, soft kisses, great tongue, pillow talk, purring phone calls in the afternoon, declaration of love messages in the middle of the night, bearing igfts of chocolate, hugs, hugs and more hugs, 100,000 watt smile and a killer ass, who makes the girls in the office swoon and the men swear he better not show up when the wives are there is back in my life.

Yep, all mine, a second chance with Mr Right for Me, right now...the karma train has come full circle and stopped, I stepped on...but wait...where is this all going...why do I care...what does it matter what the schedule is...or where the train is going...many years ago it didn't matter...knew all of the stops and the timetable...right man wrong time and I walked away...ran away...no the timing is right and here we are...so why.....

do I feel like...something is missing...hmm,un-grateful bitch you say...send him my way....2nd chance with MR RIGHT...and you aren't out dancing in the streets...

Oh, I am...but somehow...i am overthinking this whole thing...can i go with the flow and let the love shine down on me...control freak, me???...naw...i don't want to be in control...let someone else make the decisions for once...

Rediscovery...goals, ambitions, needs and desires are both the same...is it shame that I feel?...decisions from my past that haunt me?...now, when there are no timelines...only joy, bliss and that 100,000 watt smile...that greets me at the door...makes me thank god once more, that there is a karmic plan and we both are still in it together...

I am thankful for his paitence, his ever present cheerfulness and his spirit. His passion...rocks me and amazes me..everyday. His drive and tenacity...he never gave up on me...he knows me and shows me in everything that he does...unselfishly...i consider us...how we compliment each other...we say we make each other better...and we do...i want to spend this lifetime next to you.


dano6332 56M

10/3/2005 3:07 pm

If there are no timelines and he is patient than I say dont over think it and dont force it. There is a reason you hesitate and until you know for sure be careful. We are not all so lucky to get another chance at making life right or reconnecting with a person who may be the one but until you are sure he will know your not ready. It is there in the way you look, talk and even kiss. Just be sure and than what happens can be beautiful. Talk, walk and kiss together, share your lifes and if you need to date others until your sure discuss it.


rbestgurl 55F

10/3/2005 4:15 pm

Dano,

wonderful advice...except for dating others...I wouldn't even consider it...at this point in my life there are certain opportunities that i am absolutely sure about...and he IS the ONE. Was then and is now...but you pose a thought, something that i didn't consider and didn't ask about...maybe he still wants to date others...selfish of me not to ask, maybe I am assuming to much! Hmmm, guess i will have to ask...but then it brings me back full circle...don't ask questions you don't want to know the answer too...will have to walk longer, talk softer and kiss harder...think that will help?


dano6332 56M

10/3/2005 6:41 pm

absolutely and unless he is a complete asshole he is not looking for anyone else. Good luck and god bless


rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
10/7/2005 11:17 am

love is difficult

true love more so

follow your heart and see where it takes you it is worth it ... if you have the courage to face it and what it can bring


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
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~Dante~


DefiniteTrouble 50F

10/7/2005 11:35 am

Overthinking can cause soooooooooooooooooo much trouble. Just went through that a few weeks ago...a tried to pull away out of fear and almost lost him. But, thankfully, he fought hard.

Don't overthink...just don't think at all. Just enjoy the opportunity you've been given, and above all, enjoy one another.


BLONDENEEDSSEX 57F

10/7/2005 1:13 pm

Welcome to Blogland may you enjoy your space in our comminity and help is always just around the corner or just two spaces down.

Sometimes when things seem to be going great , you can`t help but let the fears creep in. And when it is a second chance there is second guessing or overthinking, and a niggling fear that perhaps the axe may come down and chop it all. This is normal and only a protective
gene knocking around. Once the readjustments are in place you will be fine . Just remember you have one special man as I`m sure he has one special lady as he keeps telling us.Look forward to meeting you.

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