thinking outloud  

ranger619 39M
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11/7/2005 2:15 pm

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thinking outloud


ok well I guess for anyone who is reading this will understand that i have no clue of what iam doing so bare with me.Today i am trying to figure out more of this site I was so reluctant to join,I almost feel stupid not knowing what to say or even what to do.I got on this site cause my life since moving back from california has really sucked in many different ways.I am normally a lot of fun, more reserved then most i have seen on this site but still all in all a pretty outgoing man.Lately things have been a bit messed up,I am going through a custody battle for my son and louisiana doesnt like to give custody to fathers.Today makes three weeks since i have seen my son and there really is nothing to keep my mind from going crazy.My son is going on four the day after christmas and I have only seen him a hand full of times since day one of his birth in 01. handle
Louisiana has its ups and major downs, I have yet to find any honest women but mabe thats just were i am looking.I am one of those kind of men who really know what they want just cant get there due to roadblocks trippin me up every time.I come from an all military family from many parts of the country.My mother just retired from the army of 22 years of service funny how you can look back and laugh at the people who use to say "yeah well your moma wears cobat boots"the things lil kids say these days.I am very proud of my mother.My family is not as tight nit as many families but we are very strong people.Emotions are more in check which makes relationships tend to fail.My little sister mylaina is somthing else.my friend and only back up as a child.Every time i got my ass whooped as a kid she was there trying to get some so i wouldnt get it all,thanks sis.My little sister was by my girlfriends father when i was fifteen which i took pretty hard.mabe that is why i cant see women cry,I am a very generous man but seeing a woman cry gets me frustrated as hell.I am very protective of my family even though we are so spread out.sister in cali i am in lousisna and mom,well she hates nature but put herself smack in nebraska were nature is all you have.
I am a a very sexual man so right now things are even harder cause after my divorce i became a hermit and am struggling to get out and meet people.I am really hoping by being part of this site i can be more active and more outgoing.I have been to the chat rooms and it seems as if the people are really cool, to bad they are so far away I think i would like to party with a bunch of you. I am only 28 but have been around the world many times.born in germany and never stayed in one place more then a few months has made me appreciate my background.As hard as it is I see many people who are all grown up and never leave there hometown.So many things to see, so many women to do its just unreal that my life turned where it did.well lets just hope my days get a little better and my son can figure out why momy is being hardheaded

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