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Why am i here ?
Why am i here ?
Why am i here ? well thats a question i have to ask my self. Up to a few weeks ago ild of never consided going to a dating web site or even posted personal stuff on the web, so what changed ?
I decided to draw a line in the sand look to my self and say "Ive gota do something or ill be lonely forever"
For you see ive never been a big dater and so several reasons and some would say silly but i know that so thats why im writing this.
Low selfesteam, I think its hard to feel attrctive if you dont think you are and even if you know there are people out there who say "Looks Dont matter" i believe they are lying so i find it hard to even approach these people.
Im FAT, Yes i know it shouldnt be a huge proble and its my own but its a never ending circle i feel fat so i dont feel attractive so i eat ((. Tried going swimming etc but im always the biggest guy im the pool so even though im exercising im feeling selfconcous about my size so swimming alone kinda drains the will to go back.
Small Penis, I think i do it may only be just below average when errect but when limp it looks small growing up i was aware of this seeing others seemingly larger penis's im sure made it hide even more,
Past flops, So i finally get girl friends (always feeling as if in pitty) and we have fun dinners and the like but the sex never really goes of with a bang, Back seats of cars with a guy with small willy isnt a great combination and the relation ships fizzle mebee more to my part wanting to give more and not being able to. ((
Signs, Why oh Why do signals exsit as i must be the worst person ever who can work them out, Ive been hit in the face for trying it on and been left the next day shaking that ive missed the opertunity on other times, heres a case in point;
we were out as a group and had been to a bar all had a few drinks and i was walking home with a nice girl just randomly chatting and she said out of the blue " i could do with a meat injection right now" as you can guess this was a next day think back and slap my self for being stupid day .
well i think ive written enough so ill return another time
1/14/2006 2:06 pm
WELL IT DOESNT LOOK TO BAD TO ME. ITS NOT SMALL I BET WHEN ITS HARD ITS BIG AND FAT. YOU SHOULDNT PUT YOUR SELF DOWN.ALSO IF IT STILL BOTHERS YOU TRY GETTING SOME TOYS AND PLAY AROUND ALITTLE. I LIKE THAT TO IT TURNS ALOT OF GIRLS ON . ALSO ITS NOT THE SIZE ITS HOW YOU USE IT.|
1/14/2006 6:24 pm
Unfortunatly it doesnt get much bigger than that, Ill take your idea of some toys away and think about it.|