me and my life  

purdy37 43F
38 posts
3/12/2006 9:37 am

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3/14/2006 9:12 am

me and my life


realisation of something bad can hit you like a ton of bricks. when you think you know someone and then find out it was all lies!!! that moment of realisation hit me and hurt me, felt like i had been hit by a bus. funny how life turns out, i knew from the start that something wasnt right, but i ignored my gut instinct and went head long in to something that never should have happened. it should have been a one off, never to be thought or spoken about again. but he led me along the path, reeled me in bit by bit, then when he got found out he just tossed me to the side with out a care in the world. i guess that is what hurts the most, i thought from all the things he told me i meant something to him, but it was all a line to keep me hooked, he could get all the sex he wanted from me and then go back to his other long term lover and god knows who else he had on the go, somthing i guess i will never find out. i wont be taken for a fool again, at 32 i have learned a valuable lesson, and my feelings wont be let out of their box for a very long time. the whole saga has left a very bitter taste in my mouth, and it wont be easy to forget in a hurry. its sad that now every new person i meet i know i will never be able to trust them. all because one person had to play with my mind and my heart and shatter my illutions.

rm_Gentle12553 66M
1378 posts
3/12/2006 10:10 am

I can only imagine how much you are hurting....wish I could just give you a hug......best of luck....take some time off from men....go shopping....take a vacation.....and forget the @#$@#$......

I can only add that I have also been there...done that....have the T-shirt to prove it along with the deep scars...

Sometimes I think I still love her.....


SolaEQ
93 posts
3/12/2006 10:11 am

Gut instinct is all we got, when it comes down to it.

I'm sorry that you got hurt. But you're right - learning that lesson is invaluable, and it's not something you could have really learned any other way.

*hugs*
Sola


Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
3/12/2006 10:23 am

Live and learn.


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
3/12/2006 10:33 am

Purdy,

This happened back to me in December and I know exactly how you are feeling. What halped was blogging about it and venting how pissed off I was. Sail and I cared very much about Samishung4u and we found out his death was a fake, he was a fake, his g/f was a fake, etc.....

Hang in there sweetie and dont let one bad apple spoil it for ya. There are some great people out here!

Purry {=}

Purry


im_your_man77 39M
961 posts
3/12/2006 10:38 am

Be careful with your feelings and who you give your heart to but don't let the actions of an ass adversely affect your future relatonships, he's not worth it.


KarezzaMagick 64M
165 posts
3/12/2006 10:55 am

"...its sad that now every new person i meet i know i will never be able to trust them. all because one person had to play with my mind and my heart and shatter my illutions."

True perhaps, but why not learn to trust yourself? I'm not trying to be cruel, because things like that have happened to me, too. But in the end, when we don't trust our own instincts... we can trust nothing!

You write...


"...knew from the start that something wasnt right, but i ignored my gut instinct and went head long in to something that never should have happened."


rm_cumwmeplz2 49M
28 posts
3/12/2006 10:58 am

Have been there, it's hard but just keep something in mind .... take it day at a time and maybe one day the right person might come along. take care. For one persons mess up now everyone is going to get it.


purdy37 43F

3/12/2006 11:02 am

i know where your coming from, he was with his ex all the time he was with me and i didnt know until a week or so ago and then he still wanted to lie about it. but the truth came out and im glad i have seen him for what he is, gonna be hard to ever trust again though.


shyshagnsnug67 49M
3 posts
3/12/2006 4:09 pm

all my ex-girlfriends and i remain good friends but
i must emphasize that they are platonic friends.
having sex with them would be like having sex with
a family member P -bleckie


elysianpleasure 47M

3/12/2006 5:36 pm

I am sorry to hear about your poor experience. I understand it making you want to be more careful... people often ignore that voice inside that tells them there is something not quite right. However, there are good people here... and the blog is a good way to slow things down and learn more about people. I hope you next relationship goes much better. Drop by and say hi sometime on my blog. Elysian


rm_goddess1946 105F
13518 posts
3/12/2006 7:06 pm

lies hurt...and sometimes it take years to heal.
know that there are many who know and understand.
over time, i think we have all been there..i know that i have.
welcome to blogland...where healing is the call of the day.

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


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