Falling off the AFF wagon  

ptilda1123 41F
144 posts
11/20/2005 5:35 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Falling off the AFF wagon

I think I remember why I got so fed-up with this site before. The whole concept of having tons of guilt-free sex with dozens of partners is appealing, but I just am not like that.

Don't get me wrong, I love sex, and I am not fake, and I am not a tease, but my standards are high, both for myself and for my relationships.

Maybe it's that I found someone I really care about, and I can feel the vibe that he's NOT going to be ok with an open relationship. He's cool with the flirting and pics & stuff, but be real, he's a Leo, and that means he's territorial.

Then there's the whole religious/political thing. I really want to work with youth, teaching music and equestrian skills, and I don't know that I want the danger of this whole thing coming out against me. I like sex, and I don't feel shame when I'm with my BF, but there's something not quite right in my stomach about this whole thing.

Maybe it's the idea of taking something that's supposed to be beautiful and the ultimate expression of love (as we were talking about in a previous post), and making it cheap. Yeah, I think that's it. One extreme makes it shameful and unatainable, and the other extreme makes it nothing more than a sport.

I don't know that I really want that. I'm still debating. Who knows, I may dissappear from AdultFriendFinder for a while & then be back... or I just might dissappear forever.

shysinger 57M
1 post
11/21/2005 8:20 am

Hey ptilda. You sound like me. Here is the deal though, if you are playing this little site, something is missing in your life! You can say that all is good with the new bf, but lets face it, you are still married, have a bf, and you are on the AdultFriendFinder. It's ok! I am in somewhat the same boat. Not looking to get laid, we all know that getting laid is easy. It is much deaper than getting laid for those of us that have half a brain. I think deep down you need someone who is interested in you as a mind and soul, not just tits and ass. Not trying to be nasty just hoping to start some dialogue with you. Get back to me and let me know if you think I am full of shit. You can probably help me at the same time!

ptilda1123 41F

11/21/2005 3:11 pm

funny thing, the posts on this subject keep getting deleted! So much for free speach! lol

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