What am I worried about . . . . ...... I'm Hot  

playfulbunny82 31F
17 posts
9/9/2005 6:30 pm

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What am I worried about . . . . ...... I'm Hot

I can't print it out now, because I can't get into his account, (I'm really not a snoopy person) I wouldn't know how. I'm throwing comments out left and right though. I'm a sarcastic little thing. He keeps asking me what's wrong, and I keep freezing up. A flat nothing is all I can give him. I totally agree that I need to do something but again I'm not the type of girl for THAT kind of confrontation. And am really not ready to give up a year relationship for a 40 year old BIG lady, who still at her weight isn't half the woman I am. That sounds harsher than I wanted it to, but it's true. She knows nothing about him not even his real age, she could be his MOM. Like seriously I think I'm almost over that point of jealousy. I'm just going to keep checking the History and keep checking the guys at my college. He keeps up the idiocy I'll pick myself up a scholarly type. I've always wanted one (lmao)!

mnfun952 102M

9/9/2005 6:55 pm

Scholars are good for many things.


sweetest_sin_05 37M/37F

9/9/2005 7:05 pm

I think you will feel better once you get it off your chest. Being bottled up, secretive, and not straight forward is playing a game... and you don't want to sink to his level.

Rideinmyjeep4fun 46M
16 posts
9/9/2005 7:16 pm

Hey Bunny.
First of all, let me tell you that I feel for you. I was married to who I thought was the greatest girl in the world for 3 years...she was amazing and I wanted it to go on forever. I had a feeling there was something going on cuz she was hanging out with this guy at work a lot and getting phone calls at 2 o'clock in the morning (it was always her cousin!!). So I was suspicious. So I started looking. I found the history of the e-mails and checked the url..took a chance on a password and got in. She had been fucking him for a while. I confronted her on it and she said she was sorry, we went through some rough times and tried. But it was never the same. I had asked her about it and she lied so every time I asked her after that, I felt she was telling me another lie.
My advice to you, if you know he is doing it (and you must be sure, because I don't want to advise you on feelings...) is to end it. End it clean and end it now, because it will never be the same. You have a year together, but not a lifetime and you can and will recover from that. But you can't trust him right now, that's evident from what you are saying. If things are meant to be between you two then your paths will cross again after you have both learned the lessons that are preventing you from being together right now. If you are not meant to be together, then you will find someone else and, pardon my language, fuck him!
Go and find yourself a scholarly type (I wish I was in your neck of the woods, but Tucson is a long ways away!) and have some fun. Heal your heart. Forget about him and make him work for you, he's the one that fucked up. You have absolutely nothing to feel bad about if he is cheating on you!!!
I'm sorry if this isn't what you want to hear, and I'm really sorry that you hurt right now. Take care of yourself and best of luck!

ineedsumfunn2 34F
1 post
9/9/2005 8:35 pm

sweetie...i think Ride is absolutely right. i've been thru that...get rid of the lousey bastard...there's lots of fun out there waiting! =D

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