touching myself  

pinkplaytoyz 49F
655 posts
2/15/2006 7:59 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

touching myself

the pain won't let me sleep
visions and words torment my mind
the loneliness is unbearable
i can't get it out
my hand caresses my face
as your hand caressed my face
run my fingertips across my lips
the lips that you kissed
follow the trail down my neck
that your lips took
cupping my breasts
stroking my nipples
as you did
pulling the sheet away from my naked body
rubbing my hand across my tummy
remembering your touch
your whispers in my ear
slowly running my hands down my hips and thighs
and softly back up
to rest on my mound
were you rested your head
parting my sweet lips
as you parted them with your tongue
feeling the heat and wetness within
opening my legs, opening myself up
as i opened myself before you
running a gentle finger around my clit
and into my wet opening
as you did
bringing my finger back out to spread my slickness
all over my pussy
enjoying the feel of it as you did
moaning softly at the pleasure
stroking my clit, wanting to feel the release
remembering the feel of your tongue inside me
remembering the feel of your hard cock inside me
loving me
building eachother's pleasure
rubbing my clit faster, building the fire withing me
my wetness pouring out of me
feeling your love, your passion
wanting to cum with you and make you cum
having all of you inside me
mounting my ripples of pleasure
thrusting against you
grinding my pussy against you
feeling the heat surge
and the white hot explosion of ecstacy
my body taut with my orgasm
thrusting with the last of my tremors
lying there, with shallow breath
and shaking
the last feeling washing through my chest in hot fury...
hating myself

MillsShipsGayly 51M

2/15/2006 11:48 am

the last feeling washing through my chest in hot fury...
hating myself


rm_anacortes 74M
2850 posts
2/15/2006 12:58 pm

Oh Gurl!!!!!!!!! Don't hate yourself.. too many, too much hate... not enough LOVE for a Goddess like you..

oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
2/15/2006 2:08 pm

beautiful my dear.

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
2/15/2006 6:29 pm

I wish I could hold you right now...

Deepthroat215 52M
328 posts
2/15/2006 7:57 pm

(gasp) I just caught my breath!

jadedbabe78 105F

2/15/2006 8:06 pm

Hugs to you ~ Jadey

mysteriesofme 44F

2/16/2006 5:08 am

mounting my ripples of pleasure

sad...? uh uh.. HOT

The song "I hate myself for loving you.." by Joan Jett is now playing through my mind..

I picked a excellent time to visit - "Wow"

fantasylover_05 62M

2/16/2006 7:21 am

Oh Pink

I am truly sorry for your apparent loss!

I only wish you healing...

I do also wish you would not hate yourself...

If only I could hold you and reassure you all will be okay....

Please know that you are indeed cared about and loved!!

That was truly sooo sad and yet very very hot.... I can only imagine how hard it was to write!!

Thank you for sharing Beautiful!!

rm_Kissmystuff 61F
1435 posts
2/16/2006 8:13 am

I can relate...but no longer feel guilty for giving myself what I need
...when needed. It's all part of being human and being woman.

Thanks for sharing.



TzarsAmuseChant 41M
2854 posts
2/16/2006 9:06 am

"I won't feel guilty
No matter what they're telling me
I won't feel dirty and buy into their misery
I won't be shamed cause I believe that love is free
It fuels the heart and sex is not the enemy"

-Garbage; "Sex is not the Enemy"

It doesn't really apply that well to your poem, but it was the first thing that came to mind when I read it.

NickRules999 39M
9462 posts
2/16/2006 9:39 am

The words are beautiful, but I'm sorry that they were written in pain. I wish you the best.


Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?


2/16/2006 9:41 am

thrusting with the last of my tremors
lying there, with shallow breath
and shaking
the last feeling washing through my chest in hot fury...

which inspirationally gets me to echo back with...

I always loved and now reminisce those moments
when she would chug on and twich a bit more
me thinking it was all over
but then yet another convulsion
like earthquake aftershocks
or a car idling which has fuel line impurities
but I never gave her the "no knocks" stuff
that extra bit of "knocking" there at the end
was the final icing on the cake
of our full smorgasbord

For both my overall health and sanity I need to someday return to sharing sensual banquets as such with another as such feasting does the "spirit and soul body" good.


MyRealLoverOne 46M

2/16/2006 4:28 pm

Sounds like you need another visit from RL!

pinkplaytoyz 49F

2/16/2006 6:25 pm

Thank you all for your comments, its refreshing to see the variety of responses, and helps to alleviate the pain!!

hisnhurzfnfrall 56M/53F

2/16/2006 8:04 pm

WOW! I found myself reading faster and faster as I read on. Very good.

zorgnot2 60M

2/17/2006 8:35 pm

SO very sad and conflicted.
The heavy feeling like a punch in the gut or a hangover- the guilty, remorse, the sense of loss or regret all combine to bring the shutters down on the eyes to the world.
I hope you pull away and find some peace and self-appreciation to rebuild your spirit.
I wish I knew not of that which I speak.

pinkplaytoyz 49F

2/18/2006 4:57 pm

but thats why I speak it, because somewhere, sometime, someone else has felt this very thing...I speak it for all of us!Thank you my friend!!

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